Memories of 2011 (via Facebook)

Setelah bikin postingan tentang status-status facebook gue tahun 2010 (zaman dimana tingkat ke-alay-an gue masih selevel titisan Dewa Zeus), sekarang gue berniat untuk mendokumentasikan status-status di tahun 2011, dimana gue sudah agak sedikit tidak alay, yah sekelas titisannya Dewa Hades lah (yee sama aja dong -__-) . But, I'm actually doing this so that I can always recall all the bitter and sweet memories engraved in 2011. Because time flies by but memories stay forever, my friend :) Please expect this to be an extremely long post! Secara memori selama satu tahun gitu..

• 3 Jan: "Dear Khoti Muliya Damiyati, Happy Anniversary, sweetheart!! Whoaa..It's been one year (again) already haha Wish we could be together like this for the next 5 years..err..I mean forever!! :) Remember, distance means nothing for us and yeah this feeling is getting stronger and stronger day by day..I love you more!!"
• 9 Jan: "Riches are not from an abundance of worldly goods but from a contented mind" - Prophet Muhammad SAW.
• 19 Jan: "Yesterday was awesooome! With triple O! Had so much fun in international food n cultural festival, my test ran so well, my report has been submitted punctually, and I finally got called by my LDR gf! \m/"
• 26 Jan: "First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win." - Mahatma Gandhi
• 28 Jan: "I'm wishing my Khoti Muliya Damiyati could give her best effort in her national scientific writing competition!! Keep Makassar in rock and bring the trophy home, sweetheart!! ;)"
• 30 Jan: "Just got back from KGPA. Udah lama ga kerja kuli begini haha penat gilee..while others had fun in prestigious dinner and sort of leadership camp, I worked so hard to earn some extra pocket money :D I should be proud of myself, shouldn't i?"

Seragam Nguli. Not Bad, yeaps?

• 3 Feb:  "My greatest gratitude to my ayuk Maya Uspasari for being the first person on earth who texted me and wished me a great birthday, to my abang Budi Kurniawan as the first person who congratulated me a happy birthday via fb, and to my Khoti Muliya Damiyati for being the first human being who gave me a call and spread her love in my heart tonight! Thank you so much! :')  Love u guys like crazy!"
• 3 Feb:  "I am not a teenager anymore :( "
• 16 Feb: "Check this out: The sentence "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog." actually uses every single letter of the alphabet! Haha."
• 24 Feb: "Subhanallah, what a night! :') Surprisingly got 2nd place and judges' favorite award in this year's Feseni-UM :D Thanks a lot for all kind of supports showered!! :D Oh my, i'll have a test at 9am T..T Gotta go studyyy maaan *sigh*"
• 25 Feb: "May Allah keep my only one elder sibling, Maya Uspasari, and our 2 little angels away from any kind of unexpected inconveniences during their 7-hours-journey tonight!! Make sure to catch me up as soon as you reach Sydney, Ayuk sayang!! Have a safe trip!! :')"
• 1 Mar: "I really hate the fact that being a student who is under full-scholarship program means that you have to study harder than others. The burden it generates really sucks! "
• 3 Mar: "Sungguh tidak pernah terbayangkan sebelumnya bahwa anggota keluarga kecil kami ini akan terpisah di 3 negara yg berbeda. Saya rindu Ayah dan kakak perempuan saya satu satunya! Rindu serindu rindunya T..T"
• 4 Mar:  "My deepest gratitude to the committee of "Malam Anugerah Tuanku Bahiyah 1", I seriously don't know how to thank you guys for awarding me the "Anugerah Bakat Harapan Seni" :) My first trophy since I've been moving to Malaysia haha Again, thank you so much! :D"

The So Awesome Trophy with my full name engraved on it perfectly :')

• 7 Mar:  "We do not remember days. We remember moments."
• 10 Mar: "Everybody deserves to be treated equally! Whether s/he is white, black, yellow or brown!"
• 12 Mar: "Bapak Usman Zuhri, Ayah nomor satu sedunia, selamat ulang tahun! Semoga Allah sentiasa melimpahkan rahmat dan hidayahNya kepada Baba'. Dan hamba mohon limpahkanlah nikmat kesehatan dan umur yang panjang kepada beliau, Yaa Rabb. I want him to attend my graduation,I need him to stand right by my side when I get married,I want him to see me building my dream house, I want to have a long trip with him.Oh my, I miss my Dad! I really do! ;("
• 14 Mar: "Hafian Fuad, my "unrelated" brother, I've spent my childhood with u..went through my adolescence with u..and becoming a grown up with you as well!! (Seems like somebody has been stuck with me his whole life haha). Today is your turn, man!! Happy 20th birthday!! Welcome to the world of maturity!! May Allah bless your life!! I wish I could be there ;( I really do! #BloodyMissYou#"
• 15 Mar: "The ones that love us never really leave us!" - Sirius Black, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
• 18 Mar:  "Girl: Which is more important to you, your life or me?| Boy: Before I answer that, let me ask you first | Girl: Sure.| Boy: Is there a difference between you and my life?" 
• 19 Mar: "Just had a superawesome BBQ party and 'bitter-sweet' moments wif Bintang Pamungkas, Syed Iftikar, Ahmad Zaldarriaga Sadain, Dil Adilla Hdw, Amira Nadaviana, Widya Handini, Nadia Syihab, Rihanna, Navid, Hasan, Wahid !! And Zeinab Smm, you are the best host we've ever met! Once again, Happy Iranian New Year! :D"

Iranian's New Year BBQ Partaaay :D

• 22 Mar: "Beauty gets the attention, but Personality gets the heart!"
• 25 Mar: "I really hope that on the next three years I could be an Erasmus Mundus Scholarship Awardee! I want to study in Europe so baaad!"
• 26 Mar:  "I'm so tired of people needing a reason for doing everything in their lives. Do it because you want to! Because it's fun! Because it makes you happy! Life is too short to be wasted by being miserable all the time!"
• 27 Mar: "Today was "awesome"! I watched the stupidest movie ever, had a supercool dinner, asked strange people to take pictures of us, got stucked in "somebody"s car lol But still a great weekend! right Zeinab Smm, Huy Pham,Mahmood Soofi, Ahmad Zaldarriaga Sadain, Niajane Nelcy, Syed Iftikar?? :D"

• 27 Mar: "Oh Insan Ramadhann and Risky Kurniawan, our stupid and short conversation in chat box made me feel so sad that u guys are not here to laugh with! Kangen (band) T..T"

The Idiots: Insan 'Bram' Ramadhan (Middle) and Risky 'Kiki' Kurniawan (Right)

• 1 April: "I am so freaking exhausted T..T but enjoyed the annual gala dinner so much :D and big thanks to the committee for awarding me the "Anugerah Seni Kreatif 2010/2011" Yes world, they gave me a trophy again! Yeaaah \m/"
• 2 April: "You are the reason I check my phone every ten minutes just to see if i have a new message, even when I don't."

You are that reason :)

• 3 April: "Finally heard Hafian Fuad's voice after an age hahaha Thanks for calling and sharing your "karma" story, ma bro!! I surely learned a lesson based on ur story haha I'll call you someday :P Next week, okay? Be strong! Stay awesome! and Lailatul Qodri, you gotta do the same thing! Call me up! As soon as you got your salary for this month! :P"
• 4 April: "Loving someone and having them love you back is the most precious thing in this world!"(Nicholas Sparks)
• 4 April: "My Indonesia just got hit by an earthquake (again) T..T Dear God, it's totally not cool! Can You just please stop rewarding my country another catastrophes? Are we THAT bad? ;("
• 5 Apr: "Just got awarded as 2nd winner of "UM's got talent 2011"! Really thought that I didn't deserve it well at first, as I didn't really give my best, had some technical problems & some participants were way more talented than me! ;( But then I realized that Allah always bestow His blessings upon those who've done good things and been a good person :) I've won 2nd place in 3 competitions this semester, I must have been a very good person then haha :D"

200 Ringgits Sahaja 

• 8 April: "Nothing is lame with being a good student. I am trying and will always try to be a good student! \m/"
• 9 Apr:  "Being all alone is not always bad :) I see things much clearer when I am alone."
• 11 April:  "Things end. But memories last forever!"
• 12 Apr: "Be confident. Too many days are wasted comparing ourselves to others and wishing to be something we aren't. Everybody has their own strengths and weaknesses. And it is only when you accept everything you are (and aren't) that you will truly succeed!"
• 13 Apr: "Most things are difficult before they are easy. I believe that I will always be able to survive in this mortal world. Yes, I really do!"
• 15 Apr: "Just had a super mind-relaxing time with Daniel Tan Kian Hin, Zeinab Smm, Huy Pham, Amira Nadaviana, Deng Xin, Milad Moazzam, Aziza, Khairul, and the korean girls :D Today I figured out that I am quite good at bowling ahaha Thanks guys! :D"
• 23 April: "Alhamdulillah, project bedah film bersama Mas Hanung Bramantyo hari ini berjalan dengan lancar. Terimakasih kepada semua pihak yg telah memberikan kontribusi hingga terlaksananya acara ini. Selaku ketua pelaksana, saya sangat sadar sekali bahwa masih banyak kekurangan disana sini, untuk itu saya mohon maaf sebesar besarnya. Sekarang saatnya fokus ke final exams..SEMANGAT! \m/"

Meet Hanung Bramantyo, epribadeh!!

• 25 April: "Called my dad tonight and he successfully changed my mood. I am becoming so blue and am feeling so not being trusted. Great. Thanks, old man!"
• 27 Apr: "I am trying and will always try to be a better Moslem day by day."
• 28 Apr: "Untuk final exam besok setidaknya saya harus menjawab 80 soalan dengan benar jika ingin mendapat A untuk subject itu T..T such a sh*tty fact! That's impossible! But whatever, miracles happen all the time :D"
• 2 May: "People cry, not because they are weak. It's because they have been strong for too long."
• 3 May: "You were born because you are going to be important to someone. So, jangan pernah takut lo bakalan jomblo seumur hidup! It's only about time, single-buddies! :D"
• 4 May:  "Yang paling bodoh dan paling tak berpendidikan adalah yang paling lantang dan paling pintar kalau bicara. (Hirata, Andrea. (2005). Laskar Pelangi. Hal. 264)"
• 5 May: "It's so simple to be wise. Just think of something stupid and dont ever try to say it. Haha."
• 8 May: "Oh man, if only I have an Eidetic/Photographic memory! I am just so sick to read, to memorize, and to understand these notes repetitively! >..<"
• 10 May: "Hey, the fact that I came from a super-small island which is also one of the youngest and smallest province in my country doesn't mean that I can't compete with y'all, big-head big city's fellas! \m/"

Bangga jadi anak pulau!! \m/

• 11 May: "No more exams. My gf is coming to KL. Going to meet my dad soon. Going to have a superlong holiday. Going back to my hometown soon. Going to have a lot of fun with my best buddies. Will do visit my sister abroad (hopefully). Aaahh, what a beautiful life! XD"
• 12 May: "A friend of mine ever told me that the only thing money gives you is the freedom of not worrying about money. Hahaha. That's just soooo true!!
• 13 May: "Well, if people call you arrogant and selfish, they actually refer to everybody on this earth. Those are the most common human natures, duh? XD"
• 18 May: "Happy birthday to Mr. Galih Yudha Kuswandaru, one of my best partners on this earth!! May Allah bless your life,bro! 20 years old already! XD Welcome to the world of maturity! So please stop acting like a kiddo XP HAHA. I'm gonna leave KL this Thursday and I am gonna miss your silliness so bad, dude! ;( Take care yo!"

Galih (on the right) admitted he never got any birthday surprise before. Kasihan :P

• 19 May: "Had a very memorable experience in Malacca with Khoti Muliya Damiyati, Galih Yudha Kuswandaru, Rhara Husni Ali, Widya Handini, and Ellvhis Syaputri today XD That state is totally a must-visit place in this country! \m/"
• 25 May: "Woman was created from the ribs of a man. Not from his head to be above him. Nor from his feet to be walk upon him. But from his side to be equal. Near to his arm to be protected and close to his heart to be loved."
• 26 May: "Alhamdulillah, finally I've been officially registered and accepted as an Indonesian delegate in Asia-Pacific Model United Nations Conference 2011 in Australian National University along with my Rhara Husni Ali. Yeaaaaay \m/ We are gonna see you so soon ayuk Maya Uspasari sayang <3"
• 3 Jun: "Pelajaran berharga yg saya dapat setelah re-read buku 5 cm dan Ranah 3 Warna 2 minggu belakangan ini : Sesungguhnya manusia yang paling baik dimata Tuhan dan sesama manusia adalah dia yang memiliki manfaat bagi orang lain dan lingkungan sekitarnya."
• 6 Jun: "Dirgahayu ke-20 buat Chacha Sipidh, sahabat seperjuangan saya yg tidak hanya sangat sipit, namun juga sangat baik hati :D Wish you have the greatest one! Trust me, Everything is gonna be fine sooner or later, young lady! Keep your chin up! :)"
• 6 Jun: "The word 'family' refers to those people who have been always proudly support the strengths which you possess and have been able to accept your weaknesses. So i can say that those best friends I am having currently are also my family, rite? :D"
• 7 Jun: "KTP baru, identitas baru! :D Secara resmi nama saya mengalami sedikit perubahan, menjadi NAJMUL FAJRI USMAN! XD *status ini diupdate live dari kantor catatan sipil kota Pangkalpinang, Bangka, Indonesia. Haha. *"
• 9 Jun: "R.I.P: My one month old 500 GB external hard-disk T..T It broke my heart to thousands pieces :( Hope dad would like to buy me the new one, not killing me instead HAHA"
• 10 Jun: "Just got back from ziarah ke kuburan nyokap dan kakak gw ;) Hanya Allah lah yg tau betapa besar rindu dihati ini terhadap indahnya kebersamaan bersama keluarga yg lengkap seperti dulu :'("
• 13 Jun: "Because those people whom you called siblings are priceless and invaluable.."

The only one sibling of mine. Love her to death.

• 28 Jun:  "Menamatkan buku "Hafalan Shalat Delisa" by Tere Liye dalam satu hari. Sungguh buku yg sangat bagus. Inspiratif luar biasa. Satu dari sekian buku yg mampu menyentuh hati saya hingga banjir air mata. Terimakasih untuk beliau yang sudah menyarankan utk membaca buku ini, sampai2 rela membelikan buku ini utk saya. Terimakasih banyak, saya belajar banyak dr buku ini. Sungguh."
• 9 Jul: "Off to Sydney, Australia. Bismillah"

Sydney, baby! 

• 10 Jul: "Pelajaran penting: Jangan pernah mengunjungi Canberra pas winter! Dingin BANGET (with capitals!) Sumpah!"
• 11 Jul: "Hari ini selain ngobrol sama anak Aussie juga ngobrol sama orang Kanada, New Zealand, India, Jepang, China, Singapura, Bangladesh, Korea, Jakarta, Jawa, Lampung, Bali, dll. Berasa keliling dunia dengerin aksen english mereka yg beda-beda :')"
• 15 Jul: "Alhamdulillah, dapet juga ternyata gw beasiswa dari pemerintah ostralinya :D Huge thanks to the AusAid for giving me this bursary! \m/"
• 17 Jul: "Today we finally witnessed the end of the journey of Mr. Harry Potter! \m/ Sorry to say Mr. David Yates, I expected much more than that ;( but still a VERY GOOD one though :D"
• 20 Jul: "Strangers think i'm quiet, My friends think i'm out-going, but My bestfriends think I am completely INSANE! haha"
• 20 Jul:  "Nothing is better than being surrounded by our closest family \m/ I am so blessed!!"
• 21 Jul: "Just got back from the snowy mountain! :D Today I finally saw and touched my first real snow, dude! Don't know how to describe my feeling :') (udik memang, di kampung saya ga ada salju, harap maklum ehem)"

The most beautiful time of my life.

• 24 Jul: "Just landed on the city of Gold Coast! XD It's soo much warmer than Canberra and Sydney, people!! Sweet!! \m/"
• 26 Jul: "Today we went to the Warner Brothers Movie World, Hollywood on the Gold Coast! It was just so awesome, peeps! XD" 
• 27 Jul:  "Off to Brisbane \m/"
• 30 Jul:  "Landed safely in Canberra last night, had so much fun in Gold Coast these last five days. Huge thanks to Austin Hasan and her mom for a super great hospitality! \m/"
• 30 Jul: "Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway. Haha."
• 31 Jul: "Because I know that I am not THAT perfect. Well, nobody is!"
• 31 Jul: "I miss two smartest idiots I ever know, Hafian Fuad and Lailatul Qodri! Cant wait to meet up and to do something dumb in the next two weeks! XD"

The idiots: Latul (middle) and Puad (right). We looked so damn gay here. Mahaha.

• 1 Aug: "Today would be our first fasting day. Ramadaan Mubaarak, everyone! May Allah shower his choicest blessings on us and our family. May He bestow His infinite mercy upon the entire Ummah and help the needy and oppressed throughout the world. Ameen."
• 6 Aug:  "We are heading to Sydney (again). I'll see you next year beautiful Canberra! (hopefully) \m/"
• 7 Aug:  "Last day in Australia. I'll go back home tomorrow, go back to the real world, go back to that rough life. Haha. Farewell, Australia! Thanks a lot for the last 30 amazing days :')"
• 13 Aug: "While world gives me a hundred reasons to cry, my best friend gives me a thousand reasons to laugh!"
• 18 Aug:  "Son: Hey Dad, I desperately wanna get a MacBook..| Dad: Oh come on Son, get a job! | Son: Dad, let's go try that new chinese restaurant! Look so yumm! | Dad: No, go get a wife! | Dad: Hello Son, would u come over to accompany me to go jogging this morning? | Son: Oh Dad, please, get a Dog!" Haha #TrueStory
• 21 Aug: "I am all alone and I am okay!"
• 8 Sep: "Up in the hill with my favorite buddies :D Bukit merbaung mamen \m/"

My favorite buddies!

Another favorite buddies of mine.

• 14 Sep: "Off to palembang. Last day in this merciful Indonesia, another one day before I go back to the reality, bitches! \m/"
• 18 Sep: "Middle finger is used when words aren't enough to let people know how annoying they are :p"
• 20 Sep: "Today I eventually finished reading "MUHAMMAD: Lelaki Penggenggam Hujan", huge thanks to Aak Seftia 'Tia' Aza who has lent me this great biography novel, cant wait to read up the sequel :)"
• 20 Sep: "Yes, I am not perfect at all. Are you?"
• 22 Sep: "I go to twitter and check my BBM much more frequently than I do in facebook now. So, please do follow and invite me, fellas :)"
• 26 Sep: "Subjects for this semester have been fixed: Research Methods, Environmental Assignment, Environmental Pollution, Biological Monitoring, Environmental Health and Safety, Introduction to Waste Management, and Introduction to Geographic Info System (GIS). May the Force be with me this whole semester! Amin yaa Allah!"
• 27 Oct: "Home wifi has been installed. Another big fat ugly distraction. T..T" 
• 10 Nov: "I've started to end every call and message I gave to my Dad with those 3 magical words. Yes, i end them up with that "I LOVE YOU" sentence. I cant imagine how red that old man's face is, when he heard and read them. Haha. Gotcha, daddy!"
• 12 Nov: "I strongly support the Green Economy concept which is gonna be addressed by the UN through the upcoming Rio+20 Conference. It might be the most appropriate method in achieving sustainable development and global poverty eradication!"
• 13 Nov:  "I do believe that interracial marriage is one of the best ways to achieve the World Peace. When differences become less matter, the peace itself will embrace human race all the way."
• 15 Nov: "Past is experience, Present is experiment & Future is expectation. Use experience in your experiments to achieve your expectations."

Friends also play crucial roles in determining your present and future time through past experience.

• 21 Nov: "Thanks for those who has been concerning about the current quality of my study. But couldn't you use a less-insulting way to express it? Couldn't you just tell me properly instead of complaining behind my back? Fyi, I am totally aware that my perseverance level in studying is terribly decreasing. You barely know me and what stuff that I am facing now, you don't personally judge me as if you have never done the same. People do have moments when they are not really into their study, right? I skip some classes doesn't mean I don't study as hard as you do. It doesn't mean that I put less efforts than you do. It doesn't mean that i don't work hard enough to catch up things that I missed. I am not always a lazy pig as you think I am. I have been trying my best, okay. Thank you so much, anyway. I forgot how criticisms can really boost up somebody's urge to keep trying to be a better person. I promise you an immediate improvement :)"

• 22 Nov:  "If only you are still 'here' with us, you might be either that 26 year old-married-and-success kinda man or that 26-single-and-hot kinda guy ;) Somehow I miss those moments when you brutally teased me, which always ended by a literal fight and I cried first. I miss those moments when you acted as a pro teacher and taught me everything you know, including how-to-speak-'broken'-English-properly lesson (which I've been practicing until now haha). I miss those awkward moments when you tried to show me that you are the greatest brother on earth and you are gonna do anything to protect our whole family. If only you are still 'here', we might have been much closer than before. You are supposed to celebrate your birthday with me, today. Yes, just you and me, two most awesome brothers ever existed. But apparently different things happened all the way. Never mind, I always let bygone be bygone though. I believe that you really are resting in peace right beside HIM now. But still, Happy 26th Birthday, my late ABANG!! I wish u billions of good returns :')" 
• 23 Nov : "Good news: My acoustic group is on the final round of "Rev Up Your Talent UM 2011" event, everyone! Please do come to support and to vote for us today, okay? It's gonna be held at the AUDITORIUM of KPS. Our performance itself will be around 3 to 4 PM. So, if you are free and have no class at that time, please don't be hesitant to come over, aye? Your presence means a lot! ;)"

We won 2nd place at the end of it :D

• 11 Dec: "People come with different perspectives. Every single human being in this world has their own ways to see things. I always respect that fact. Why can't you?"
• 22 Dec: "Happy Indonesian Mother's Day! The only thing I wish God could bring back to my life is my Mom. Thus, people, please do love your Ma as much as you can, while you are still having her by your side. ;)"
• 26 Dec: "Welcome to KL my most awesome uncle, Pakcu Subhan Zuhri Muhammad and his little family!! XD Nothing is better than being surrounded by our closest family, indeed! :D"

My uncle rocks!!

My Facebook Statuses in 2010.

So, I've found this awesome application to show the history of our facebook statuses from the very beginning  you created your account up to the earliest updated ones. I have been reading mine and I found it was so crazily fun! :D It has been recorded that I've joined facebook since 2009, but since my statuses in that particular year were mostly lack of good quality and so freaking lame (I frown all the time reading them! >..<), so let's just have a look at some of my interesting (read: the least lame of all) statuses in 2010. Some were written in Bahasa Indonesia though. So, yeah..

• March 20: "The winner sees problems as opportunities for further growth."
• May 10: "Love is the water of life, without love there is no life."
• July 1: "Sometimes, being smart means knowing how to give up." 
• July 13: "Gapapa saya telat masuk kuliah satu tahun dari kawan-kawan seangkatan saya. Yang penting saya punya kesempatan untuk blajar di universitas nomer satu di negri jiran ini. Yang penting saya dapat kesempatan bersaing dalam komunitas yang lebih global. Yang penting saya bisa punya temen-temen dr berbagai negara berbeda seperti saat ini. Yang penting saya punya pegangan utk masa depan, dan yang paling penting: GRATIS! :D"
• July 22:  "Dosen geologi gue td siang ngomong gini: "One of the biggest TIN deposit resources in d world is in BANGKA island, Sumatra, Indonesia." Gue langsung nyengir kuda, membusungkan dada, dan ngembang-ngempisin idung. BANGGA!"
• Jul 25: "For my juniors and everybody whose a big notion to study overseas whether its under scholarship or self-subsidizing, I just wanna to state that STUDY ABROAD IS SERIOUSLY NOT AS EASY AS YOU THINK T.T I don't mean to be so discouraging..but, you better think more than twice before you decide to give it a go ;)"
• Aug 10: "Teraweh pertama di negri orang. T_T Marhaban yaa Ramadhan..mudah mudahan bisa pol kayak taon kmaren :) Amin yaa Allah."
• Sep 2:  "Two more days and I'll be seeing those two lil' angels. Oh Fatih & 'Aisya, Ammi cant wait to meet you guys and give you two my scary-bear-hugs :D"
• Sep 4: "Mr.sandler, I gave 8.5 out of 10 point of my movie-meter for your "GROWN UPS". I laughed from the beginning to the end. Thanks. It freshened me a lot! :D"
• Sep 19: "Just finished reading dwilogi Padang Bulan by Bang Andrea Hirata..Mantap boi!! A must-read-very-soon book!! :D"
• Sep 22: "The most common sample organism from phylum Porifera is : SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS. Hahahaha. Garing -__-v"
• Sep 23: "If you can dream it, you can do it!" - Walt Disney.
• Oct 15:  "Just had a very very wonderful time with my presentation skill class buddies!! :D We'll definitely miss you Dr. Teoh Mei Lin, YOU SO ROCK!! :')"
• Oct 17 :  X: "Dude, I think I've got that kinda homesick thing. I'm missing my mom. I miss her smile, her 'creepy' stare, everything! Dont u miss ur mom?" Me: " Of course I do, dude. I miss her in every single second of my life" X: "Yeah, so we definitely should go back home and meet our mom these next 3 weeks holiday!" Me: " I wish I can, but my mom has left us forever. She is resting in Heaven peacefully rite now :) Lucky you, dude. Don't stop making her proud!" 
• Oct 23: "Just got a bad news. My brother, best friend, partner, enemy, wife: Insan Ramadhann,  masuk rumah sakit, didiagnosis terserang DBD :'( Dude, please get well soon or I'll go there n kick your ass!!
• Oct 24: "Bagi burung biadab yang udah tega berakin gue waktu gue lagi serius belajar maen basket tadi sore: Gue sumpahin lo jadi burung single seumur hidup lo! Gue sumpahin lo diberakin ama burung yg lebih gede! Gue sumpahin ga ada yg mau temenan ama lo! Dasar burung yg tidak berperikemanusiaan! Masih kerasa tauk eek lo di mulut gue sampe sekaraaang T_T"
• Nov 5: "Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy today, but it cant rain forever!"
• Nov 8: "Hey, Mr. Time!! Don't you realize that you have been running too fast?? Make it slower you moron!!"
• Nov 17: "Happy Eid Qurban 1431 H, everyone!! First time celebrating it way far from my motherland. I went nowhere today, no special foods and gathering, accidentally fell asleep all day long and 4 days remaining to those creepy final exam!! What a life!! T..T"
• Nov 18: "Damn you Mr. Rick Riordan..Can u just stop tempting and distracting me by your astonishing "Heroes of Olympus" books!! I gotta study for finals!!"
• Nov 19: "Just watched the last Harry Potter movie Part 1. Well, you did a great job David Yates. Eventhough it was sorta too dark (or gloomy?) and kinda became a horror movie plus a bit fulgar for kiddos,but hell yeah you got a better sense of humor this year. I'm still falling for Hermione Granger (or Emma Watson?), she was damn hotter than last time! Cant wait to see the 2nd part which will be released on July next year."
• Dec 1: "In this beginning of December, I've learned something: No need to be a doctor to possess abilities to heal somebody, all we need is being caring and loving to other people."
• Dec 21: "It is well to give when asked, but it is better to give unasked, through understanding!" - Kahlil Gibran.
• Dec 23: "Yesterday was very great, I had a perfect family gathering and met my cousins. Today, I'm not feeling really well, there must be something wrong with my body system. Tomorrow would be much greater for sure, as I'm gonna meet my princess. Aw aw. Hahaha
• Dec 31: "Saya yakin Allah maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik bagi saya. Semoga hasilnya sesuai dengan usaha yg sudah saya lakukan dan kemampuan yg saya miliki. Amiin yaa Rabbal 'Alamin.."

How I looked in 2010. Yuck!

THE PARENTS : Those Who Made Me This Strong!

First thing is this blogpost contains a quite personal and serious topic. If you wish to get entertained by jokes, I kindly wouldn't recommend you to read it up. Hehe.

So, a few weeks ago, there was a friend of mine who told me that he sees a very strong and well-sustained character in me. He said that I always seemed tough and relax and cheerfully enjoying my life to the fullest, regardless of problems I've encountered throughout my days. Well, I considered that as a compliment.

Soon after, he asked me how I could become that kind of person since he thinks that he's never able to be one. I was pondering in silence for a while. Then, without any doubt, I answered his question. I told him that it's all because of my parents. They are really the ones who made me this strong.

He begged me to tell more stories about my parents. I refused. I told him it's an extremely sensitive topic for me. I always try my hardest to avoid that topic to get involved in any sorts of my conversation. He insisted and forced me to do so. As a total extrovert, I easily lost. I told him all the stories about my parents. I caught him dropped his tears a bit, I teased him all day long for being such a cry-baby. Haha.

He asked me to write those stories in my blog the other day, as he is simply motivated and slightly touched by my stories. I rejected to fulfill his request. But, guess what, here I am writing the story of my parents -____- Blame it on the extrovertedness ! :P

The Father

Let's start with the father of mine.

His name is USMAN ZUHRI. I always call him either Baba' or Daddy. He is turning 61 this year.

Dad might be one of the most conservative and not-so-open-minded men I've ever known. The fact that he really doesn't talk so much always makes me wonder how the hell that he could end up as one prominent politician in my town O_o

Yes, I have been raising up by a politician and trust me that it never really worked well. Dad got his LL.B (Bachelor of Laws) in a-local-university-i-forgot-what-its-name-was. He was a super busy man, his schedule would always packed. Having a quality time with him is a very rare phenomenon for each of his children.

His financial management skill is superb. We never could just ask him to buy anything we wanted. Even when we asked Mom to beg him. He always taught us that to gain something from him we had to achieve a certain milestone first. To get success in life, we must give all-out sacrifices. No fun, but a very imperative lesson indeed.

Dad is also an extremely religious guy. The most in our big family I would say. I don't know why that fact sometimes can seriously scare the hell out of me. Well, probably because I always can foresee that I would never be able to be as a religious as him. Gah!

The Mother

My mother was named AFIFAH, an Arabic word means chaste, pure, holy, sacred.

I called her Mama'. She was always that kind of annoyingly talkative lady. She crazily cared about the growth and self-development of each of her kids. It's not surprising at all though, as she was a primary school teacher whose commonly possesses that nature :)

Unlike Dad, Mom was a sport and artistic person. Dad was always the academic and serious one.

Unlike Dad, Mom would try anything to get everything her kids (and she herself) wanted. She was kinda extravagant sometimes, while Dad was always the very modest one.

Mom was a total fun, she shared stories and jokes a lot, her sense of humor was always hundreds of thousands times better than Dad's. She always laughed so loud as if nobody ever cared. Haha.

Well, let's move to the sad part of the story.

So, when I was 4, Mom got a terrifying stroke attack. Her right arm became totally dysfunctional. But she still worked as a teacher, her cheerfulness never faded away. She kept trying her best to play the mother role in the family. Ah, that angel in disguise! :')

When I was about 10, Mom lost her ability to talk properly. Things were changing slowly.

I started to think that Mom's condition would embarrass me in front of my friends. Thus, I never really let her meet them. My elder sister started to take over Mom's role. Dad was still as busy as a bee.

My elder brother couldn't handle the issues well; the lack of attention and parents' roles issues.

He's got murdered when he was 17. It really is a long story. The point is we were all so freaking devastated. Mom's the worst. Dad started to get closer to us, I bet it was kinda embarrassing for him. The story my brother had been published in local newspapers for a couple of weeks.

Since then, I promised my self to be unstoppable at making my parents proud. I started to join competitions and I got myself involved in organizations. People said I have achieved a lot, I believe I did. Despite the fact that my parents never attended and witnessed the moments I got awarded trophies and certificates of recognition.

Long story short, when I was 17, Mom left us forever. Dad wedded a stranger and my only one elder sister moved out of the town. I was a total mess. My attitude reached the worst and people hated me. I started to smoke, I didn't go to school, I wasted my money for crappy things, I dated two innocent girls in one time and I stopped believe in God. I hated God for putting me in such a misery. I was really lost.

Oh, I'm seriously having such a really hard time here, recalling these memories! *cold-sweating**tears-wiping*

Well, It took me almost a year to recover, to see things more clearly, to realize that I was being a huge fool, to realize that I had been torturing my people. I started to believe that pains and sorrows are supposed to make us stronger and tougher, instead of making us gradually weaker and eventually become a loser. I started to believe that God, in all of kinds of faith existed in this world, would never leave His worshipers in any kinds of life circumstance. I came to realize that losses can do nothing but strengthen us in a way nothing else could ever do.

So, I continued to reach the top and started to chase after my dreams again to keep surviving as my parents' pride. Until now.

Notes:

Today, It's been exactly 4 years since the last time I saw the peaceful face of my mother. Ah, I miss that angel in disguise so much. Every single day of my life, I beg Allah to treat her well over there. I really hope that He has been doing what I have been praying for Him to do. We might live in different worlds now, yet our love makes no distance! I still and will always love you till my last breath, Mama' :')

THE 2012 RESOLUTIONS: Hopes, Wishes, and Expectations.

First thing first, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

I am really hoping that every single human-being on this earth is having a very wonderful one as I am now, surrounded by joy and happiness. Especially for those who are suffering from any kind of difficulties in their lives ( having creepy final exams here #cries# ).

Well, in this short blog post, I just want to list out some of my hopes, wishes, and expectations (Aren't they the same things? No idea -..-) which I need, wait no, I HAVE TO achieve this year! :D

Well, without further ado, here they are!!

1. A better relationship with Allah Almighty.
2. A better relationship with my father.
3. A better relationship with Oti, the girlfriend.

4. A second visit to my sister and her lil' family's in Canberra, Australia.
5. A higher-than-3.70 CGPA. Maintain it in 3.50, at least.
6. More than 5 new immigration stamps from more than 5 different countries in my passport.
7. A healthier life-style.
8. Body weight losses. (Hell yeah!!)
9. More volunteering experiences.
10. More scholarships to attend international conferences.
11. Read more 'good' books and watch more 'good' movies. (No, Faj, 'good' here doesn't include those sexual-pleasant stuffs! Okay??)
12. Join more competitions and win most of them! Hah!
13. Make a band!
14. Get more foreign friends. Through all possible ways! *creepy grin*
15. Be a well-organized person!
16. Go to twitter and facebook less frequently! Instead, write on blog more!

17. Post videos on Youtube. But only the worth-to-be-watched ones!
18. Stop being very good at procrastinating! Life is too short to be wasted!
19. Take more leadership roles, for the sake of becoming a qualified future leader! :)
20. Take more pictures with the camera. It was bought for a reason, young man!
21. Be more fashionable! People judge you from your outfits and your appearance defines your awesomeness level these days. Such a pathetic fact indeed.
22. Be a more environmental-friendly kinda of person. You are studying environmental science and management, douche!
23. Join the debate club back!
24. Practice and polish the singing skills more intensely. People said you are gifted!

25.Lastly, love the people who treat you well, and forgive those who don't!

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Well, this can take forever. I think that's enough for now, let us see whether or not I can reach all of those expectations by the end of this year! :D

A LETTER TO A PERFECT NEPHEW.

Dear Muhammad Al Fatih..

Ammi is here, champ. :')

How's Australia treating you so far?

I bet and I hope you are having a very good-quality of life with Ummi, Abi, and Adek Cacah over there.

I know, I know you haven't even started to learn how to read properly. I am writing this letter only for a self-satisfaction, only to cure that I-desperately-miss-you feeling, with also an expectation that you will read this letter one day :)

Yes, I MISS YOU SO MUCH HERE T..T

Do you know what day is today, buddy? It's your 4th Birthday! :D

I am not there by your side right now to celebrate it, to throw pieces of cake to your face, to mock you until you cry, to give you the present you wanted the most just like the way I did before. But, trust me, I'll always be there inside of your heart, and vice versa. :')

You know what?

When you were born, first question came to my head was

"What's next? Is this little guy going to ruin my whole life with his naughtiness? Or is he going to make my life even brighter?"

The answer is already in my hand now.

Yes, you have been brightening my days since the first day of your life.

It might be because of I've never had a younger sibling before.

But yeah, by coming to my life somehow you just successfully filled up the missing part of my life entity.

By being the first nephew I ever had, you've just simply changed my life into a more colorful one.

You really do mean a lot to me, you know.

People said we have a lot of similarities (physically and mentally).

I said NO, you are a hundred times more charming than me, you are gonna be a much smarter person than me, and you will be such a much much greater guy than me. ;)

You will conquer this world just the way the great and late conqueror of

Constantinople, Muhammad Al-Fatih did. :')

Happy 4th birthday, Muhammad Al Fatih! The coolest kid on this earth.

The most awesome nephew God ever created.

APALAH ARTINYA SEBUAH NAMA??

Apalah artinya sebuah nama?

Ya, dulunya memang saya setuju dengan penggunaan jargon diatas.

Kita tidak harus tahu nama seseorang untuk menilai kepribadian orang tersebut.

Kita tidak perlu tahu nama seseorang saat kita memberi ataupun menerima sesuatu.

Kita tidak harus mencari tahu nama asli seseorang saat kita terpukau oleh prestasinya.

Cukup tahu saja yang satu mana orang itu.

Tapi itu kan dulu!! #korban iklan#

Setelah mengarungi hidup selama kurang lebih, ehem, 20 tahun..

Pola pikir saya tentu saja sedikit banyak mengalami keterbelakangan perubahan.

Perubahan-perubahan yang tentu saja senantiasa ke arah yg lebih maju dan akan membawa bangsa kita kepada era yang lebih dinamis!! ( ini kampanye atau apa? -..-)

Jadi intinya, perspektif teraktual yang saya miliki tentang 'nama' sekarang tidak sama seperti dulu lagi, saudara saudara. ( daritadi kek -__-)

Menurut saya, peranan sebuah 'nama' sangatlah krusial, fundamental, dan membawa sial*

*abaikan frasa terakhir dari klausa diatas.

Well, saya terlahir dengan nama:

NAJMUL FAJRI

Bintang Fajar, maknanya secara etimologis, diambil dari bahasa Unta Arab.

Secara terminologis, memiliki makna "Anak laki-laki yang lahir di saat fajar/subuh dan bercahaya layaknya bintang" (sedikit ngarang, maaf).

Namun sekarang, nama saya di KTP, Paspor, Kartu Mahasiswa dan dokumen2 sejenis lainnya secara resmi sudah berganti menjadi

NAJMUL FAJRI USMAN

Yes, it already has my father's name at the end of it :)

Sungguh indah, bukan? ;)

Sungguh disayangkan, selama sekitar 16 tahun pertama hidup saya, secara ironis SANGAT JARANG SEKALI ( ya, dengan huruf kapital yang dipertebal) saya dipanggil dengan nama asli saya yang indah itu T..T Hanya orangtua saya yang senantiasa memanggil saya 'FAJRI'

Teman-teman dan saudara-saudara saya di kampung, meng 'anugerah' kan beragam nama panggilan untuk saya. Sungguh beragam. Beberapa diantaranya, yaitu:

PAYI. OYEK. OYEX.OYES. BAGONG. DOMPENG. NDUT. GEMBUL. CABUL. MAIMUL. MUMUL. RIRI. IMUL. PAJI. FARJI. FAHRI. dsb.

Diantara nama-nama itu ada yang hanya bersifat sementara, pun ada yang masih melekat sampai sekarang. Fakta yang lebih miris lagi, tidak ada satu pun dari nama-nama tersebut yang maknanya mendekati nama asli saya >..<

Dulu, saya tidak keberatan sama sekali. Mau dipanggil dengan sebutan apa saja silakan, asalkan eksistensi saya diakui oleh banyak orang dan imej baik saya tetap terjaga.

Tapi untuk sekarang, maaf saja. Prinsip saya sudah berbeda.

Pernah membaca atau menonton kisah yang bertajuk The Namesake?

Singkatnya, dalam kisah itu tokoh utamanya baru tersadar dan bersedia menggunakan nama asli yg diberikan ayahnya (yg menurutnya kurang modern) setelah ayahnya meninggal dan menjelaskan betapa penting dan berartinya asal-usul namanya itu dalam kehidupan kedua orangtuanya melalui sepucuk surat yg ditulisnya sebelum 'pergi'.

Kisah itu sungguh membuka mata, hati dan pikiran saya tentang betapa signifikan arti sebuah nama. Terutama bagi orang tua.

Orang tua saya mungkin saja menghabiskan berbulan-bulan untuk menentukan nama terbaik untuk saya.

Atau entah beberapa puluh kali mereka terlibat dalam perdebatan yang menguras energi dan pikiran sebelum akhirnya sepakat untuk menggunakan nama itu untuk me'label'i saya, buah hati mereka.

Jadi, sekarang I would like to declare that saya (dan orang tua saya) akan sangat bahagia dan menghargai jika anda memanggil saya dengan nama saya yg SESUNGGUHNYA!

Ya, tolong lah berusaha untuk memanggil saya dengan nama NAJMUL ataupun FAJRI.

Dan jangan sekali2 berani memanggil saya dengan nama USMAN!

Karena itu adalah nama ayah saya (plis deh -..-")

MUL, MOEL, and PAJRI are still acceptable though. You can call me that way. Karena basically itu memang nama asli saya.

Dan baru baru ini saya punya nama panggilan baru di lingkungan kampus saya di Malaysia.

They call me FAJ (read: FUDGE ) here. Masih bisa bisa diterima dengan alasan yg sama. Disamping itu artinya juga oke, katanya si tante Wikipedia:

"Fudge is a type of Western confectionery which is usually very sweet, and extremely rich. It is made by mixing sugar, butter, and milk and heating it to the soft-ball stage at 240 °F (116 °C), and then beating the mixture while it cools so that it acquires a smooth, creamy consistency. Many variations with other flavourings added are possible."

Yeah, It's a FOOD and it's SWEET. Two best words to represent and to describe myself.

HAHA.

Furthermore, I have to admit that the Nickname sounds cool. I feel like I am holding a huge authority just like Cornelius Fudge, one of the prominent Ministers of the magical world of Harry Potter, had. HAHA.

Saya rasa cukup sekian untuk post kali ini. Semoga aja orang orang yang sudah semena mena mengubah nama saya pada baca. Ehehehe.

I AM BACK!!

Hey, guess who's back in the blog?? It's apparently ME!! HAHA

Whoaaa..It's been AGES since the last time I touched this virtual diary!

Fine, It's only been 1 YEAR + 1 MONTH + 1 WEEK since the last time I posted my crappy life stories in this blog. Such a beautiful statistic, rite?

Yet, It's still such a SUPERLONG hiatus, isn't it? HAHA Miss me? I know you do!

( As if there are people out there who regularly visit this blog -..-" )

Yeah, I know I am such a horrible blogger. Trust me, I always do. If there is a sort of Razzie Awards for young bloggers, I might have been nominated in all 9 categories in a row and won at least half of them. At least! #deepsigh

Well, in my defense, I wasn't really sure enough that sharing my private stories in this blog is a wise thing to do. But then, I realized that there is nothing bad with sharing our stories to other people. Instead, It might generate a great relief in our heart.

It always feels good to let your burden fly away by telling your closest fellas, doesn't it? It always feels good to see people's laughter and smile while you are telling them the happiness and funny stories of yours.

Furthermore, It took me more than one year to finally justify myself about the fact that

I AM A TOTAL EXTROVERT!

Yeah, It took me that long to know that I am possessing that Choleric-Sanguine temperaments. Never heard about that kind of temperament, eh? Click here.

In short, I am the people-oriented one! I can't barely survive without personally and intensely interact with other people. I am so 'opened'.

So here I am, unleashing my thoughts and my stories for the sake of survival. Hehehe.

Well, in this post I would like to emphasize some certain things regarding my blogging activity :

1/ A good friend of mine told me not to write on my blog by expecting people to read it. But do write it to satisfy myself. It's gonna make me feel better. I am gonna try to do so, bro! ;)

2/ A best friend of mine complained about the language which I used to write on my blog. Yeah, I've used the mixed 'Bahasa Indonesia-English' kinda language in my previous posts and It seemed like he got really confused and annoyed by that. Haha. Sorry Man, my bad.

There are also some of my foreign friends who demanded me to write full in English so that they can easily understand my stories. Well, guys, the thing is I do love to speak both of them!

I NEED to use English because as a student who is studying in an abroad university, in which English is practically used all the time, my written English so SUCKS , and people always said that "Practice makes Perfect", aye? :D

I NEED to use Bahasa just simply to keep my perseverance to preserve my national language.

So, I've decided to keep my bilingual style on writing here in my blog! But, I will try not to mix them in one post. Then again, It depends on my mood whether I wanna write in which language.

Are we cool?? Sip Dah!! <-- another failure -___-"

3/ I've changed the web address of this blog (again) since I found out that the former address was kinda SUPERLAME!!

So now, It becaaaaaameeee.. *Drum Rolls..DUNG..DUNG..DUNG..*

justfajriusman.blogspot.com

Not cool enough?? That's your problem! :P

4/ As we are reaching the end of 2011, I will try my best to recall all big days which happened to me for the past 12 months and write them on this awesome blog. Just want to put those memories in one certain place since I am such a forgetful pig and just want to see the 50-year-old-me smile when he reopens this blog in the future. Hehehe. But yeah, I dont give a promise this time. HAHA.

It's five in the morning already and I'm still not sleepy at all. Uh, I always forget how strong caffeinated coffee can affect my brain. Well, that's all for this time! Ciao!!

It always feels so good to be back, Baby! ;)