Monday, December 31

In A Glance: My Amazing 2012

Aloha, my neglected virtual diary! The amazing 2012 is ending today and I'm still pretty lazy to write a good quality entry here so I'm just gonna review what happened in my life throughout the year based on statuses I've updated on Facebook just like what I did in previous blogposts. Well, I actually have been going to twitter more frequently since the beginning of the year, but still quite active sharing momentous points of my life on Facebook though. This will be pretty long with a lot of pictures to enjoy :) 
  • 2 Jan: "Happy new year 2012! May Allah bestow His blessings toward us this whole new year, as much as last year! I wish everyone will get a much better life this year. My 2011 was quite colorful..bad things happened, good ones occurred even more :) Have an awesome 2012, people!"  #BetterLateThanNever
Last New Year's Eve celebration at Puchi's
  • 2 Jan: "I am having a sudden trip to Singapore with my relatives. It's free of charge, but will screw my exams preparation schedule for sure T..T Shall I be happy? -..- Well, anyway, if you urgently need to contact me, you can reach me through fb, twitter, and email. I'll only be there for a few days though ;)"

 Free Trip to Singapore! Sweet treat from my uncle :')
  • 12 Jan: "Bismillah. Second Final Paper. Environmental Health and Safety. 8.30am sharp. Wish me the best of luck in the universe! Let's find out whether or not miracles really exist! :D"
  • 13 Jan: "IELTS exam. Corus Hotel and British Council of KL. 8.45am - onwards. Hope everything will be alright. Bismillah."
  • 18 Jan:  "I'll be having my last exam paper within two hours. This means that in the approximately next 4 hours from now, I'LL BE AS FREE AS A BIRD! The bald eagle one! Haha. Huga huga! XD P.S: The lecturer of today's subject hates me. I have to give the hardest shits I can do. Wish me the best of luck in the world puhleaaase.. "
  • 27 Jan: "My IELTS result is finally out. It was quite okay since I didn't prepare for it well. Why didn't I prepare for it very well? *regretting face* Hope it will work for those programs I would like to join, after all. Deep sigh."
  • 31 Jan: "January has eventually bailed and February has just arrived. I utterly believe that 'she' is going to surprise me with blasts and become the prettiest out of all months. Hopefully."
  • 11 Feb: "The appearance of the first ever C letter among the six A letters in my result is really such a heartbreaking. But, I know that I deserve it as I didn't push myself hard enough on that subject :( But still, Alhamdulillah..I am gonna work hundreds times harder this semester! I have to! Huga huga!! \m/ "
  • 15 Feb: "Alhamdulillah, I am surprisingly on the top 25 and made it to the octofinal of the 2012 Asian English Olympics, speech category. I am begging for your prayers here. Please wish me the whole luckiness in the next rounds ya!"
  • 17 Feb:  "I only can make it to the top 8 best speakers. I didn't make it to the top 4. I lost. All I am bringing home is only the semi-finalist of the 2012 Asian English Olympics certificate. I am sorry :("

Great event. Will definitely join it again next year.
  • 24 Feb: "You treat me well, I am gonna treat you best. You hate me well, I am still gonna treat you best B)"
  • 26 Feb: "Have a safe flight to Korea our super-careless-yet-lovely Widya Handini !! We're gonna miss you so much yo! T..T Don't get tricked by those cute-face korean boys, they are dangerous :p Instead, bring me back some cuties from there! mahaha"
Widya Handini a.k.a "The Silly Bubu"
  • 28 Feb: "Just got a surprising email : Dear Applicant, Congratulations! You are invited to participate in the 6th World Youth Congress in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil from June 4th to June 13th 2012. You have been chosen as one of 300 successful applicants out of 5000 applied from all corners of the world for your motivational and interesting essays in the themes of the Rio+20 Summit. All expenses related to food, accommodation and domestic transport in Brazil will be covered by the organisation during the period of the congress and participants are expected to raise the funds to travel to/from Rio de Janeiro--Should I cry? Should I laugh? Should I just ignore and delete it? or..Should I go for it?"
  • 12 Mar: "We are busy growing up, sometimes we forget that our parents are also growing up. Happy birthday the most favorite old man of mine, Mr. Usman Zuhri. May Allah bestow His blessings toward you much much more this year. Semoga umurnya sentiasa berkah :) Stay healthy, Daddy! I don't miss you, but yeah I still love you more than anyone else in the whole universe! ;)"
My Old Man :')
  • 16 Mar: "Today, it's been exactly 4 years since the last time I saw the peaceful face of my mother. Ah, I miss that angel in disguise so much. Every single day of my life, I beg Allah to treat her well over there. I hope He has been doing what I have been praying for Him to do. We are now in different worlds, yet our love makes no distance! I still and will always love you till my last breath, Mama' :')" *read the story of my beloved mother here*
  • 25 Mar: "Nope, you are so wrong. I am not giving up, I am opening the new doors. I am too strong to be broken, dawg!"
  • 27 Mar: "Have a safe and sound flight to Japan abang Ihwan Ghazali !! May Allah ease your superlong journey!! See you in seven months :) And yeah, enjoy Vietnam to the fullest masbro Muhammad Irfan and kak Dwi Rizka Zulkia :D" *virtual hugs*
  • 28 Mar: "Yesterday was a day when a very bad bad news and a very good good news struck my life simultaneously. I seriously didn't know how to react Y..Y Today is hopefully the day when all good news come together and embrace me. Bismillah.."
  • 30 Mar: "Just gave a super-late surprise party to our Gilang Ramadhan ! Sorry man, my bad :( Happy birthday, ma boooyy! May Allah always ease your days and I wish you all the best for your future undertakings. I still can't believe that you've just had your 20th one! Maturity is like your middle name and it's like you've left your teenage waaay before I did -___- Please keep standing by my side dude, my life is a total mess without you! Seriously. *wet kisses* Muahahaha"
Mr. Gilang Ramadhan, the best roommate I ever had.
  • 9 April: "This is life. It's either you disappoint people by your decision or people disappoint you by not being able to accept your ideas."
  • 11 April: "Selamat ulang tahun ke-27 lelaki penghibur favorit saya Insan Ramadhan. My life wouldn't be this wonderful without your presence :') I wish nothing but the best for your future undertakings, mamen. Stay awesome! Stay healthy! Stay by my side! and STAY ONCEL!! :* P.S: ANGKET TELPON KO YA KERBAK LUTONG!!!! -..- "

Lelaki-Lelaki Penghibur Terkemuka
  • 30 Apr: "Good morning, people of the world. Really hope this last Monday of April will be an awesome closing of the month and a great opening of the week for each of us. Carpe diem! Seize the day! \m/"
  • 30 Apr: "Just got selected as one of Indonesian representatives to attend Global Youth Cultural Summit on the UN Millenium Development Goals. Another free ticket to meet exceptional young people from all around the world. Alhamdulillah :')"
  • 1 May: "You said I've never failed? Dude, I've failed a lot these last few months! I've lost in some competitions, I've failed in accomplishing my school assignments and tests, I've failed in executing jobs assigned to me by my organizations, I've failed of being a good son recently, I've failed in attending two international events I've been waiting my whole life to join, I've failed of being a perfect boyfriend, I've broken my bestfriends' hearts, I've failed in volunteering activities, and tons more. But then, I've been always keeping in my mind that just because you fail once or twice or thrice of for so many times, doesn't mean that you are gonna fail at everything for the rest of your life! Keep trying, hold on and always believe in yourself, because if you don't, who will?? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling! because life's a beautiful thing and there's countless of things to smile about! :) 
  • 10 May:  "Each night, when I go to sleep, I die. And the next morning, when I wake up, I am reborn." - Mahatma Gandhi.
  • 16 May: "There is only one thing which can make your dream becomes impossible to be achieved: The Fear of Failure."
  • 17 May: "Good day, citizens of the earth. Stop judging people from their past, they don't live there anymore ;)"
  • 23 May: "Even though it was only an hour rendezvous, nothing in this world can beat the joy of seeing your face in the airport today, Khoti Muliya Damiyati :') Have a safe flight to Korea, girlfriend! and please make sure to contact me as soon as you reach Incheon. I love you :* "
The Girlfriend: The One Who Knows Me the Best <3
  • 25 May: "My band and my saman dance group will be performing in the International Cultural and Food Fair 2012, Auditorium KPS UM, 6pm onwards. So, if you are around, you are cordially invited to come and enjoy our performances :D Really hope to see y'all there, UM fellas!! XD"
The Asymmetry
Saman Mirah Puteh! Cekiii!
  • 26 May: "Just unexpectedly received an email saying that I have passed through competitive selection and been selected as one of Indonesian representatives to attend the International Youth Forum 2012 which is gonna be held in Seliger-Russia, 9-17 July 2012. It's a prestigious world-class event which will gather youth from more than 80 countries. Fajri Usman is one lucky guy. All praises to Allah :')"
  • 1 Jun: "Don't be afraid to take an unfamiliar path, sometimes they are the ones that take you to the best places. Welcome, June! I can see your awesomeness already :D May Allah ease every single day of this month! Amiin! (a kinda late updated status -__-v)"
  • 2 Jun: "Received the official invitation to attend ISWinT 2012, an International Student Week which will be held in Timisoara, Romania. I've never been to Europe before and am freakin' interested with the programs, but the dates are overlapped with the Russia one :( Well, there's always next time. Maybe next year, Romania..Wait no, It HAS TO be next year! :D"
  • 3 Jun:  "I'm on my way to the airport. I'll be flying to Dubai then straight away to Brazil to attend the 6th World Youth Congress very shortly :) Mohon doanya ya..I'm freakin' nervous yet super-excited >..< Shall you need to contact me, please do so either through email, fb, and twitter :) May Allah ease my journey to experience this once in a lifetime opportunity :') Bismillah.."
It's never easy to get visa to visit Brazil, fellas. In my case, it was free of charge :')
Dubai International Airport. Freaking Huge!! And Mesmerizing!!
  • 5 Jun: "This status is updated in the middle of a very breathtaking rain forest in Rio de Janeiro called Sitio das Pedras :D This is also as the confirmation to all families, relatives, friends, and colleagues who are worrying about the Malaysian and Indonesian delegates that we all have arrived in Brazil very safely and sound :D The internet connection here is kinda weak that we can´t really update our daily activities in the 6th World Youth Congress tho :( Nonetheless, It`s RIO Babyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
It's Rio, baby!
  • 14 Jun: "Alhamdulillah, I've finally arrived in KL after a long long flight from Brazil tanpa kekurangan sesuatu apapun :') The 6th World Youth Congress was a remarkable experience which can't ever be described in words. I've left a piece of my heart in Rio and I promise myself to go back there one sweet day in the future. It's now the time to face a very harsh reality called the final examination! Huga huga! P.S. Pictures and stories will be kindly shared once all my exams are done -___-v"
300 exceptional young people from all over the globe were gathered to create a better world.
Cultural Performance. I sang, for the world.
Action Projects with the Local Communities. Priceless experience.

The Roundtable Discussions, Peer Workshops and Plenary Sessions have extraordinarily  improved my learning curve.
Friends were beautifully made.
Brandon, delegate from South Africa. The former roommate of mine.
Santiago from Uruguay, a quite close friend during the event.
Julio from Peru, Zetong from Malaysia, and Nadine from Brazil. Amazing people.
Bintou from Mali, Luntha and Donald from Bostwana. Remarkably talented youth!
The Favelas: Poor Community Settlements.
Oh, somebody please bring me back to Brazil!! 
  • 30 Jun: "Having 6 final exams in 5 consecutive days without sufficient preparation really drove me nuts last week. The fact that I can clearly foresee my CGPA for this semester will be significantly decreased make it even worse *cries* I swear I will never ever 'escape' during my study weeks in the future!"
  • 3 Jul: "Wahai teman sejawat, berhentilah mencoba menginjeksikan konfusi nisbi itu kedalam diri saya karena saya tergolong dalam kaum kuriositas yang akan selalu memiliki afeksi berlebih dalam mencari sinkronisitas setiap aspek kehidupan. Keep that on your mind, douche! ;)"
  • 4 Jul: "You don't necessarily have to own a perfect family to achieve higher than others. All you need the most is believing in yourself" - A living proof :)
  • 5 Jul:  "Selamat pagi! When some things go wrong, take a moment to be thankful for the things which are still going right. God always has a perfect timing; never early, never late. It takes a little patience and faith, but it's worth the wait :)"
  • 6 Jul: "Allahuakbaaar, beasiswa ke Rusianya udah cair doong. Dua kali lipat dr yg diharapkan pulak! ehehe Segala puji bagiMu yaa Allaaaah :D *sujud syukur 2000x*"
  • 7 Jul: "Bismillah. It's finally time to go. I will be flying to Abu Dhabi very shortly and will continue to fly to Moscow on the next day. I really hope I can be a good representative of my country in this prestigious International Youth Forum. Oh man, I still can't believe this is happening >..< I seriously require a bottle of luck from you! P.S. Shall u need any queries, please contact me through email, fb, or twitter."

Abu Dhabi International Airport. I love the architecture.
  • 7 Jul: "Happy 27th Birthday Mister Lailatul Qodri, a living super-absorbent sponge whom I am always extremely proud of, an awesomely idiot brother of mine whose the worst sense of humor in the universe, a life-time supporter of mine who always stands for me (literally) in any circumstances, a fake cheerleader who has unfortunately appeared to be one of the best friends in my entire life. Tons of great returns for you are wished from Abu Dhabi International Airport. Have a great one, Dude!! *hot smooches* HAHAHA"
Lailatul 'Katul' Qodri. Artis Ibukota.
  • 12 Jul: "Day 4 in Russia. The impression hasn't changed : This land is sooo breathtaking. I am enjoying the summer school so much that I'm recommending you to apply for this program next year. Especially for those who love to be educated in modern ways and amazed by the beauty of our nature in the same time :) This international youth forum is very well-organized and well-prepared even though the lectures are sometimes very dead boring. HAHA! P.S. It's 10pm in the evening here but it's still as bright as 12pm in the afternoon O_o"
  • 16 Jul: "Just had the last dinner in the International Youth Forum Seliger 2012. I am kinda sad :'( I am definitely gonna miss the breathtaking forest, the amazing lake, the camp, the people and the classes. But extremely excited at the same time, as we'll be travelling to St. Petersburg and Moscow up to next week! Wooohooo! :D"
The most memorable summer school ever!
The delegates of Indonesia. Tampang TKI semua XD I love you people so much!!
  • 17 Jul: "Arrived in Saint Petersburg already. This city is just sooo MIND-BLOWING! XD Ga heran lagi deh kenapa kota ini dinobatkan sebagai salah satu kota terindah didunia. Arsitektur gabungan Vienna, Paris, dan Londonnya bikin merinding ga berenti2 >..< Mimpi apa ya gue bisa sampe kesini?? Alhamdulillah. Allahuakbaaar! :')"
Kampung. Udik. Bodo Amat.
The birdy hated me -__-
The State Hermitage Museum, salah satu museum terlengkap dan terindah didunia :') 

Didepan Masjid Biru yang diperjuangkan Bung Karno bagi kaum Muslim Rusia di St. Petersburg

Katedral 'Berdarah' yang sangat indah :') 
  • 20 Jul: "Arrived in Moscow yesterday, after deadly amazed by countless of incredibly beautiful buildings in St. Petersburg. Sholat di Blue Mosque, masjid biru yang diperjuangkan oleh bung Karno buat kaum muslimin disana. Visited The heart-robbing State Hermitage Museum, salah satu museum terlengkap didunia. Visited the Kremlin and St. Basil's Cathedral in the famous Red Square of Moscow. I am so blessed :') I am welcoming the Holy Ramadhan here from Moscow. Ramadhan Kareem for all my brothers and sisters
The Worldwide Famous Red Square!
Pemuda-pemudi Indonesia taklukkan Rusia!
Moscow tidak kalah cantik kok dari St. Petersburg :)
  • 22 Jul: "Currently in Domodedovo International Airport, waiting for my Moscow-Abu Dhabi flight. This marks the end of my adventure in this largest country in the world :'( Representing Indonesia in the International Youth Forum was indeed a remarkable experience. Travelling throughout St. Petersburg and Moscow engraved priceless memories in my mind and my heart. Dulunya hanya bisa berimajinasi tentang keindahan Rusia melalui salah satu bukunya kan Habiburrahman El-Shirazy. Ga nyangka banget kalo akhirny
Demodedovo International Airport, Moscow, Russia.
  • 28 Jul: "Ketakutan saya dulu tidak terbukti. Dompet dan paspor tidak lenyap di Dubai. Handphone dan kamera tidak dicuri di Brazil. Tidak ada dokumen penting yg tercecer di Abu Dhabi. Tidak ada barang yg tertinggal di Rusia. Bahkan tidak ad uang yg tidak saya catat kemana perginya. Tingkat ketelitian saya tampaknya meningkat dgn sgt signifikan. Tidak terlalu ceroboh lagi. Perubahan yg patut dibanggakan :)"
  • 1 Aug:  "Musibah dan cobaan dari Allah bisa datang kapan saja, dimana saja, dan kepada siapa saja. Jangan diratapi. Jadikan bahan refleksi. Sesungguhnya ada hikmah dan pelajaran berharga dalam setiap ujian dariNya. Bad things happen in life. Insya Allah saya sudah ikhlas. I've had much worse losses than this, moving on is a piece of cake :) Selamat datang wahai Agustus! Mari bersahabat! :D" 
  • 4 Aug: "Never get tired of doing small things for others. Sometimes those little things occupy the biggest part of their hearts. (Inspired by the sincere kindheartedness of Mr. Jamaluddin Syakirin )"
  • 8 Aug: "Kepulangan saya ke kampung halaman hari ini terpaksa ditunda karena urusan visa belum kelar. I was really really sad :( Then I had skype session with the nephew and the niece, the sadness just simply disappeared. Emang ya, nothing can entertain me like the way they do :') Plus, I'm finally about to watch The Dark Knight Rises with a very good friend of mine. Life is not that bad :)"
  • 11 Aug: "Alhamdulillah, everything has been settled. I AM COMING BACK HOME TOMORROW, PEOPLE!! XD Babeh, anakmu pulang besok beeeh! :')"
  • 16 Aug: "Being Home = Good Foods = No Good Internet = Higher Sleeping Quantity = Becoming An Ugly Giant! *deep sigh*"
  • 17 Aug: "At last, the term "Independence" itself for me can't be merely defined as the declaration of freedom. It has to be appreciated much more than that as it was acquired through rough struglings, heaps of sacrifices, by a high number of parties who loved their nation more than anything. Happy Independence day, Indonesia! Dirgahayu ke-67 tanah tumpah darahku yang mulia!" - A very proud (and young) Indonesian. :)"
A proud (and young) Indonesian.
  • 18 Sep: "As I am now back in Malaysia already, this fb account won't be neglected anymore :) It wasn't the best holiday I had back then, but thanks to the girlfriend, the best friends, and some relatives who turned the idea of celebrating Eid Fitri and summer holiday in my homeland without the presence of the father and the sister to be not as bad as I thought :) And for ten great (and thick) books I'd been finished reading over last three weeks, thanks for your companions as well! :D"
  • 22 Sep: "Ga kerasa udah harus mulai nulis proposal skripsi aja. Time awaits for no man. Yes, It'd never await for you, once you stop to look after it, it will leave you behind. True story indeed."
  • 11 Oct: "Submitted my thesis proposal today. I hope it's alright. I really do. My fingers are crossed. Please cross yours for me as well :)"
  • 14 Oct: "Volunteered in an Indonesian's non-formal education center in Klang + Volunteered in KL Eco-Film Festival + Hosted acara Sosialisasi Online Database Pelajar, Guru, Mahasiswa dan Dosen Indonesia di Malaysia at the Embassy + Hosted and participated dalam Pelantikan Pengurus Persatuan Pelajar Indonesia se-Malaysia 2012/13 dan Raker Perdana PPIM 2012/13 + Visited by an old friend , Jefri Efranda + Great Lunch with Persatuan Pelajar Bangka Belitung = The very blessed weekends."
  • 17 Oct: "That blue moment when you are surrounded by so many people that care about you but you still feel all alone :'("
  • 18 Oct: "Conducted my first youth-empowering discussion on challenges we face in expanding education opportunities. I am amazed by the fiery spirit of a group of youth who participated to make a big change. Never felt this great for so long. My greatest gratitude for those who came tonight, you guys are gonna make great future leaders :') Huge thanks to Greg Nance and The ChaseFuture Tribe for the guidance. Debrief will be submitted after my mid-term exams, okay, Mr.Nance? :P What changes the world is consciousness and what creates consciousness is education alone. So, keep educating yourself and people around you, fellas!"
  • 21 Oct:  "Inspirasi itu sejatinya tidak mengenal dimensi. Bisa datang dari mana saja dan kapan saja. Aku bisa menjadi inspirasi bagimu dan mereka, pun kamu bisa menjadi sangat inspiratif bagiku dan mereka. Tidak ada inspirasi yang memaksa, hanya ada yang menyegarkan dan mengekspansi horizon serta energi positif dalam diri."
  • 24 Oct: "Bought a little time to teach the children of Indonesian migrants again in the middle of my exams, assignments, and organizational activities today. The kids call themselves underprivileged, impoverished, and stateless. I call them education warriors, dream catchers and the best teacher of sincerity. Their spirits to pursue their dreams are much more enormous than mine. Educating them really revives me. Thanks for today, budak-budak hebat Klang! :')"
Anak-anak hebat Indonesia di Malaysia :') 
  • 4 Nov: "It's exactly 5 months ago, I left for the breathtaking land of Brazil and stepped my feet in South America for the very first time, to represent the nation of Indonesia in the 6th World Youth Congress. I was really fortunate to meet 300 exceptional youth from every corner of the world, whose remarkably great minds and spirits of making changes. Young people who've constantly been my motivation to play my roles in creating a better world. I really miss seeing them in the mind-blowing land of Rio de Janeiro. I'm wondering how they are doing now, must have been very busy making changes in their own countries :')"
  • 10 Nov: "Forum Diskusi "Pemuda Bicara" malam ini benar2 membuka mata saya bahwa pemuda-pemudi Indonesia yang berkarya di luar negeri memiliki rasa nasionalisme yang tidak kalah masif dengan mereka yang berkarya didalam negeri, malah malam ini saya bisa melihat dengan jelas tendensi mereka yang sangat jauh lebih besar untuk mewujudkan secara nyata rasa cinta terhadap bangsa Indonesia. Thanks for coming, everyone! Indonesia (harusnya) sangat bangga memiliki generasi2 pembawa perubahan seperti kalian! Tetap semangat dalam membangun bangsa! Dan Selamat Hari Pahlawan! :D"
  • 10 Nov: "So, I've surprisingly been selected among 1000 applicants from throughout South-East Asia to represent Indonesia as well as University of Malaya in the 2012 ASEAN Student Forum. Seems like my campus has started to treat International and Local students equally, as all expenses I need are being covered by the university. All praises to Allah :') I'll be leaving for Thailand very early in the morning tomorrow. Wish me the best of luck in the world, everyone! :D"
One of the best International Students Events I've ever attended!
With Firman and Zakwan, the selected representatives of University of Malaya.  We're like brothers :')
The Delegates of Indonesia. Remarkable young people!
I enjoyed every session of the event. Every bit of it was so impressive!
Don't get trolled. I was acting as a pro speaker HAHAHA
The White Party. Mook (left) was my Liaison Officer and Eunice (right) was a delegate from the Philippines . Lovable young ladies!
The Mask Partaaaay! Awesome enough!
The Certificate Awarding Ceremony. We were called to the stage one by one.
  • 17 Nov: "Arrived back home very late last night as my flight from Bangkok was being delayed quite long. Nevertheless, representing Indonesia as well as University of Malaya in the 2012 ASEAN Student Forum was indeed a remarkable and fruitful experience. I loved the people, the hospitality, the activities, the foods, the punctuality, the organization of the event, and the impacts it brought so much! It was one of the best international youth events I've ever attended. Thanks ASF 2012, I'm now much prouder to be a part of ASEAN! :')"
  • 21 Nov: "I was born and raised in one of the smallest and youngest provinces in Indonesia called the Province of Bangka Belitung Archipelago. Some people call it secluded, boring, and isolated islands. I call it the land of perfections. Some don't even know where it is located or whether it is really exist in this world or not. They may say it's in the middle of nowhere, but for me, it is always in my heart and occupies the biggest part of it. Happy 12th anniversary, Bangka Belitung! I wish you the endless prosperity! Thank you for shaping me so I can become who I am right now :')"
  • 22 Nov: "If only he is still around, today would be his 27th birthday. We might have been much closer than before. We would have that so-called brothers' birthday dinner, just the two of us, sharing stories about movies, books, games, or even girls. I miss those moments when you teased and mocked me till I cried and then you got scolded by Mom and Dad, moments when you taught me the broken english that I'm still using up to this day. I miss all the laughs, fights, tears, and jokes we used to share together. I miss you, my dear brother, M. Fauzan Ilhami. I pray you are resting in the eternal peace. Amin Allahumma Amiin :')"
  • 7 Dec: "I'll be serving as the moderator of a panel discussion for tomorrow's "International Outreach Program of University of Malaya". It will be conducted in KPS Auditorium of UM from 9am, but my session shall be around 2pm. If you are international students studying in UM, I strongly encourage you to come as this event is specially created for you ;) So yeah, I really hope to see you there! :D"
It was a great experience moderating such a great event. The panelists were very informative that I learned a lot from them :')
Puan Halimaton, pihak yang berjasa besar dalam keikutsertaan saya dalam ASEAN  Students Forum 2012 dan   dipercayanya saya untuk memoderasi International Students Outreach Program.
  • 14 Dec: "I sincerely congratulate my brother and sister, Budi Kur and Maya Uspasari for being officially graduated from Crawford School of Public Policy, Australian National University today. And my good friend, Tyas RizkyAstriningtias for her first student-run art exhibition in University of Malaya. I really wish I could attend your big days :( Nonetheless, I am a very proud brother and so happy for you guys! :') Keep up the good works!"
  • 20 Dec 2012: "Three days ago my Saman traditional dance group was awarded the best performance in the 2012 Friendship International Networks Cultural Event. Today, my Choir group named as the Champion of the 2012 University of Malaya's Co-Curriculum Festival. Our hardworks have been paid off"well :')"
The Saman-ers won! Watch our performance here.
The Choir group for co-curriculum subject. Watch our performance here.
  • 21 Dec: "Below are those faces you show to the world when a rough semester has officially ended and you kinda survived well, your role as vice-president in your organization has also been officially completed, yet the world is still pretty alive and the Mayan people are being screwed :D"


Such a long post! I can't feel my fingers anymore writing this. Haha.
Well, so that's how I went through 2012. I'm so ready to welcome the 2013.
I wish everyone an amazing year ahead! 

Monday, December 10

Memories of 2011 (via Facebook)

Setelah bikin postingan tentang status-status facebook gue tahun 2010 (zaman dimana tingkat ke-alay-an gue masih selevel titisan Dewa Zeus), sekarang gue berniat untuk mendokumentasikan status-status di tahun 2011, dimana gue sudah agak sedikit tidak alay, yah sekelas titisannya Dewa Hades lah (yee sama aja dong -__-) . But, I'm actually doing this so that I can always recall all the bitter and sweet memories engraved in 2011. Because time flies by but memories stay forever, my friend :) Please expect this to be an extremely long post! Secara memori selama satu tahun gitu..
  • 3 Jan: "Dear Khoti Muliya Damiyati, Happy Anniversary, sweetheart!! Whoaa..It's been one year (again) already haha Wish we could be together like this for the next 5 years..err..I mean forever!! :) Remember, distance means nothing for us and yeah this feeling is getting stronger and stronger day by day..I love you more!!"
  • 9 Jan: "Riches are not from an abundance of worldly goods but from a contented mind" - Prophet Muhammad SAW.
  • 19 Jan: "Yesterday was awesooome! With triple O! Had so much fun in international food n cultural festival, my test ran so well, my report has been submitted punctually, and I finally got called by my LDR gf! \m/"
  • 26 Jan: "First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win." - Mahatma Gandhi
  • 28 Jan: "I'm wishing my Khoti Muliya Damiyati could give her best effort in her national scientific writing competition!! Keep Makassar in rock and bring the trophy home, sweetheart!! ;)"
  • 30 Jan: "Just got back from KGPA. Udah lama ga kerja kuli begini haha penat gilee..while others had fun in prestigious dinner and sort of leadership camp, I worked so hard to earn some extra pocket money :D I should be proud of myself, shouldn't i?"
Seragam Nguli. Not Bad, yeaps?
  • 3 Feb:  "My greatest gratitude to my ayuk Maya Uspasari for being the first person on earth who texted me and wished me a great birthday, to my abang Budi Kurniawan as the first person who congratulated me a happy birthday via fb, and to my Khoti Muliya Damiyati for being the first human being who gave me a call and spread her love in my heart tonight! Thank you so much! :')  Love u guys like crazy!"
  • 3 Feb:  "I am not a teenager anymore :( "
  • 16 Feb: "Check this out: The sentence "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog." actually uses every single letter of the alphabet! Haha."
  • 24 Feb: "Subhanallah, what a night! :') Surprisingly got 2nd place and judges' favorite award in this year's Feseni-UM :D Thanks a lot for all kind of supports showered!! :D Oh my, i'll have a test at 9am T..T Gotta go studyyy maaan *sigh*"
  • 25 Feb: "May Allah keep my only one elder sibling, Maya Uspasari, and our 2 little angels away from any kind of unexpected inconveniences during their 7-hours-journey tonight!! Make sure to catch me up as soon as you reach Sydney, Ayuk sayang!! Have a safe trip!! :')"
  • 1 Mar: "I really hate the fact that being a student who is under full-scholarship program means that you have to study harder than others. The burden it generates really sucks! "
  • 3 Mar: "Sungguh tidak pernah terbayangkan sebelumnya bahwa anggota keluarga kecil kami ini akan terpisah di 3 negara yg berbeda. Saya rindu Ayah dan kakak perempuan saya satu satunya! Rindu serindu rindunya T..T"
  • 4 Mar:  "My deepest gratitude to the committee of "Malam Anugerah Tuanku Bahiyah 1", I seriously don't know how to thank you guys for awarding me the "Anugerah Bakat Harapan Seni" :) My first trophy since I've been moving to Malaysia haha Again, thank you so much! :D"
The So Awesome Trophy with my full name engraved on it perfectly :')
  • 7 Mar:  "We do not remember days. We remember moments."
  • 10 Mar: "Everybody deserves to be treated equally! Whether s/he is white, black, yellow or brown!"
  • 12 Mar: "Bapak Usman Zuhri, Ayah nomor satu sedunia, selamat ulang tahun! Semoga Allah sentiasa melimpahkan rahmat dan hidayahNya kepada Baba'. Dan hamba mohon limpahkanlah nikmat kesehatan dan umur yang panjang kepada beliau, Yaa Rabb. I want him to attend my graduation,I need him to stand right by my side when I get married,I want him to see me building my dream house, I want to have a long trip with him.Oh my, I miss my Dad! I really do! ;("
  • 14 Mar: "Hafian Fuad, my "unrelated" brother, I've spent my childhood with u..went through my adolescence with u..and becoming a grown up with you as well!! (Seems like somebody has been stuck with me his whole life haha). Today is your turn, man!! Happy 20th birthday!! Welcome to the world of maturity!! May Allah bless your life!! I wish I could be there ;( I really do! #BloodyMissYou#"
  • 15 Mar: "The ones that love us never really leave us!" - Sirius Black, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
  • 18 Mar:  "Girl: Which is more important to you, your life or me?| Boy: Before I answer that, let me ask you first | Girl: Sure.| Boy: Is there a difference between you and my life?" 
  • 19 Mar: "Just had a superawesome BBQ party and 'bitter-sweet' moments wif Bintang Pamungkas, Syed Iftikar, Ahmad Zaldarriaga Sadain, Dil Adilla Hdw, Amira Nadaviana, Widya Handini, Nadia Syihab, Rihanna, Navid, Hasan, Wahid !! And Zeinab Smm, you are the best host we've ever met! Once again, Happy Iranian New Year! :D"
Iranian's New Year BBQ Partaaay :D
  • 22 Mar: "Beauty gets the attention, but Personality gets the heart!"
  • 25 Mar: "I really hope that on the next three years I could be an Erasmus Mundus Scholarship Awardee! I want to study in Europe so baaad!"
  • 26 Mar:  "I'm so tired of people needing a reason for doing everything in their lives. Do it because you want to! Because it's fun! Because it makes you happy! Life is too short to be wasted by being miserable all the time!"
  • 27 Mar: "Today was "awesome"! I watched the stupidest movie ever, had a supercool dinner, asked strange people to take pictures of us, got stucked in "somebody"s car lol But still a great weekend! right Zeinab Smm, Huy Pham,Mahmood Soofi, Ahmad Zaldarriaga Sadain, Niajane Nelcy, Syed Iftikar?? :D"
  • 27 Mar: "Oh Insan Ramadhann and Risky Kurniawan, our stupid and short conversation in chat box made me feel so sad that u guys are not here to laugh with! Kangen (band) T..T"
The Idiots: Insan 'Bram' Ramadhan (Middle) and Risky 'Kiki' Kurniawan (Right)
  • 1 April: "I am so freaking exhausted T..T but enjoyed the annual gala dinner so much :D and big thanks to the committee for awarding me the "Anugerah Seni Kreatif 2010/2011" Yes world, they gave me a trophy again! Yeaaah \m/"
  • 2 April: "You are the reason I check my phone every ten minutes just to see if i have a new message, even when I don't."
You are that reason :)
  • 3 April: "Finally heard Hafian Fuad's voice after an age hahaha Thanks for calling and sharing your "karma" story, ma bro!! I surely learned a lesson based on ur story haha I'll call you someday :P Next week, okay? Be strong! Stay awesome! and Lailatul Qodri, you gotta do the same thing! Call me up! As soon as you got your salary for this month! :P"
  • 4 April: "Loving someone and having them love you back is the most precious thing in this world!"(Nicholas Sparks)
  • 4 April: "My Indonesia just got hit by an earthquake (again) T..T Dear God, it's totally not cool! Can You just please stop rewarding my country another catastrophes? Are we THAT bad? ;("
  • 5 Apr: "Just got awarded as 2nd winner of "UM's got talent 2011"! Really thought that I didn't deserve it well at first, as I didn't really give my best, had some technical problems & some participants were way more talented than me! ;( But then I realized that Allah always bestow His blessings upon those who've done good things and been a good person :) I've won 2nd place in 3 competitions this semester, I must have been a very good person then haha :D"

200 Ringgits Sahaja 
  • 8 April: "Nothing is lame with being a good student. I am trying and will always try to be a good student! \m/"
  • 9 Apr:  "Being all alone is not always bad :) I see things much clearer when I am alone."
  • 11 April:  "Things end. But memories last forever!"
  • 12 Apr: "Be confident. Too many days are wasted comparing ourselves to others and wishing to be something we aren't. Everybody has their own strengths and weaknesses. And it is only when you accept everything you are (and aren't) that you will truly succeed!"
  • 13 Apr: "Most things are difficult before they are easy. I believe that I will always be able to survive in this mortal world. Yes, I really do!"
  • 15 Apr: "Just had a super mind-relaxing time with Daniel Tan Kian Hin, Zeinab Smm, Huy Pham, Amira Nadaviana, Deng Xin, Milad Moazzam, Aziza, Khairul, and the korean girls :D Today I figured out that I am quite good at bowling ahaha Thanks guys! :D"
  • 23 April: "Alhamdulillah, project bedah film bersama Mas Hanung Bramantyo hari ini berjalan dengan lancar. Terimakasih kepada semua pihak yg telah memberikan kontribusi hingga terlaksananya acara ini. Selaku ketua pelaksana, saya sangat sadar sekali bahwa masih banyak kekurangan disana sini, untuk itu saya mohon maaf sebesar besarnya. Sekarang saatnya fokus ke final exams..SEMANGAT! \m/"
Meet Hanung Bramantyo, epribadeh!!
  • 25 April: "Called my dad tonight and he successfully changed my mood. I am becoming so blue and am feeling so not being trusted. Great. Thanks, old man!"
  • 27 Apr: "I am trying and will always try to be a better Moslem day by day."
  • 28 Apr: "Untuk final exam besok setidaknya saya harus menjawab 80 soalan dengan benar jika ingin mendapat A untuk subject itu T..T such a sh*tty fact! That's impossible! But whatever, miracles happen all the time :D"
  • 2 May: "People cry, not because they are weak. It's because they have been strong for too long."
  • 3 May: "You were born because you are going to be important to someone. So, jangan pernah takut lo bakalan jomblo seumur hidup! It's only about time, single-buddies! :D"
  • 4 May:  "Yang paling bodoh dan paling tak berpendidikan adalah yang paling lantang dan paling pintar kalau bicara. (Hirata, Andrea. (2005). Laskar Pelangi. Hal. 264)"
  • 5 May: "It's so simple to be wise. Just think of something stupid and dont ever try to say it. Haha."
  • 8 May: "Oh man, if only I have an Eidetic/Photographic memory! I am just so sick to read, to memorize, and to understand these notes repetitively! >..<"
  • 10 May: "Hey, the fact that I came from a super-small island which is also one of the youngest and smallest province in my country doesn't mean that I can't compete with y'all, big-head big city's fellas! \m/"
Bangga jadi anak pulau!! \m/
  • 11 May: "No more exams. My gf is coming to KL. Going to meet my dad soon. Going to have a superlong holiday. Going back to my hometown soon. Going to have a lot of fun with my best buddies. Will do visit my sister abroad (hopefully). Aaahh, what a beautiful life! XD"
  • 12 May: "A friend of mine ever told me that the only thing money gives you is the freedom of not worrying about money. Hahaha. That's just soooo true!!
  • 13 May: "Well, if people call you arrogant and selfish, they actually refer to everybody on this earth. Those are the most common human natures, duh? XD"
  • 18 May: "Happy birthday to Mr. Galih Yudha Kuswandaru, one of my best partners on this earth!! May Allah bless your life,bro! 20 years old already! XD Welcome to the world of maturity! So please stop acting like a kiddo XP HAHA. I'm gonna leave KL this Thursday and I am gonna miss your silliness so bad, dude! ;( Take care yo!"
Galih (on the right) admitted he never got any birthday surprise before. Kasihan :P
  • 19 May: "Had a very memorable experience in Malacca with Khoti Muliya Damiyati, Galih Yudha Kuswandaru, Rhara Husni Ali, Widya Handini, and Ellvhis Syaputri today XD That state is totally a must-visit place in this country! \m/"
  • 25 May: "Woman was created from the ribs of a man. Not from his head to be above him. Nor from his feet to be walk upon him. But from his side to be equal. Near to his arm to be protected and close to his heart to be loved."
  • 26 May: "Alhamdulillah, finally I've been officially registered and accepted as an Indonesian delegate in Asia-Pacific Model United Nations Conference 2011 in Australian National University along with my Rhara Husni Ali. Yeaaaaay \m/ We are gonna see you so soon ayuk Maya Uspasari sayang <3"
  • 3 Jun: "Pelajaran berharga yg saya dapat setelah re-read buku 5 cm dan Ranah 3 Warna 2 minggu belakangan ini : Sesungguhnya manusia yang paling baik dimata Tuhan dan sesama manusia adalah dia yang memiliki manfaat bagi orang lain dan lingkungan sekitarnya."
  • 6 Jun: "Dirgahayu ke-20 buat Chacha Sipidh, sahabat seperjuangan saya yg tidak hanya sangat sipit, namun juga sangat baik hati :D Wish you have the greatest one! Trust me, Everything is gonna be fine sooner or later, young lady! Keep your chin up! :)"
  • 6 Jun: "The word 'family' refers to those people who have been always proudly support the strengths which you possess and have been able to accept your weaknesses. So i can say that those best friends I am having currently are also my family, rite? :D"
  • 7 Jun: "KTP baru, identitas baru! :D Secara resmi nama saya mengalami sedikit perubahan, menjadi NAJMUL FAJRI USMAN! XD *status ini diupdate live dari kantor catatan sipil kota Pangkalpinang, Bangka, Indonesia. Haha. *"
  • 9 Jun: "R.I.P: My one month old 500 GB external hard-disk T..T It broke my heart to thousands pieces :( Hope dad would like to buy me the new one, not killing me instead HAHA"
  • 10 Jun: "Just got back from ziarah ke kuburan nyokap dan kakak gw ;) Hanya Allah lah yg tau betapa besar rindu dihati ini terhadap indahnya kebersamaan bersama keluarga yg lengkap seperti dulu :'("
  • 13 Jun: "Because those people whom you called siblings are priceless and invaluable.."
The only one sibling of mine. Love her to death.
  • 28 Jun:  "Menamatkan buku "Hafalan Shalat Delisa" by Tere Liye dalam satu hari. Sungguh buku yg sangat bagus. Inspiratif luar biasa. Satu dari sekian buku yg mampu menyentuh hati saya hingga banjir air mata. Terimakasih untuk beliau yang sudah menyarankan utk membaca buku ini, sampai2 rela membelikan buku ini utk saya. Terimakasih banyak, saya belajar banyak dr buku ini. Sungguh."
  • 9 Jul: "Off to Sydney, Australia. Bismillah"

Sydney, baby! 
  • 10 Jul: "Pelajaran penting: Jangan pernah mengunjungi Canberra pas winter! Dingin BANGET (with capitals!) Sumpah!"
  • 11 Jul: "Hari ini selain ngobrol sama anak Aussie juga ngobrol sama orang Kanada, New Zealand, India, Jepang, China, Singapura, Bangladesh, Korea, Jakarta, Jawa, Lampung, Bali, dll. Berasa keliling dunia dengerin aksen english mereka yg beda-beda :')"
  • 15 Jul: "Alhamdulillah, dapet juga ternyata gw beasiswa dari pemerintah ostralinya :D Huge thanks to the AusAid for giving me this bursary! \m/"
  • 17 Jul: "Today we finally witnessed the end of the journey of Mr. Harry Potter! \m/ Sorry to say Mr. David Yates, I expected much more than that ;( but still a VERY GOOD one though :D"
  • 20 Jul: "Strangers think i'm quiet, My friends think i'm out-going, but My bestfriends think I am completely INSANE! haha"
  • 20 Jul:  "Nothing is better than being surrounded by our closest family \m/ I am so blessed!!"
  • 21 Jul: "Just got back from the snowy mountain! :D Today I finally saw and touched my first real snow, dude! Don't know how to describe my feeling :') (udik memang, di kampung saya ga ada salju, harap maklum ehem)"
The most beautiful time of my life.
  • 24 Jul: "Just landed on the city of Gold Coast! XD It's soo much warmer than Canberra and Sydney, people!! Sweet!! \m/"
  • 26 Jul: "Today we went to the Warner Brothers Movie World, Hollywood on the Gold Coast! It was just so awesome, peeps! XD" 
  • 27 Jul:  "Off to Brisbane \m/"
  • 30 Jul:  "Landed safely in Canberra last night, had so much fun in Gold Coast these last five days. Huge thanks to Austin Hasan and her mom for a super great hospitality! \m/"
  • 30 Jul: "Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway. Haha."
  • 31 Jul: "Because I know that I am not THAT perfect. Well, nobody is!"
  • 31 Jul: "I miss two smartest idiots I ever know, Hafian Fuad and Lailatul Qodri! Cant wait to meet up and to do something dumb in the next two weeks! XD"
The idiots: Latul (middle) and Puad (right). We looked so damn gay here. Mahaha.
  • 1 Aug: "Today would be our first fasting day. Ramadaan Mubaarak, everyone! May Allah shower his choicest blessings on us and our family. May He bestow His infinite mercy upon the entire Ummah and help the needy and oppressed throughout the world. Ameen."
  • 6 Aug:  "We are heading to Sydney (again). I'll see you next year beautiful Canberra! (hopefully) \m/"
  • 7 Aug:  "Last day in Australia. I'll go back home tomorrow, go back to the real world, go back to that rough life. Haha. Farewell, Australia! Thanks a lot for the last 30 amazing days :')"
  • 13 Aug: "While world gives me a hundred reasons to cry, my best friend gives me a thousand reasons to laugh!"
  • 18 Aug:  "Son: Hey Dad, I desperately wanna get a MacBook..| Dad: Oh come on Son, get a job! | Son: Dad, let's go try that new chinese restaurant! Look so yumm! | Dad: No, go get a wife! | Dad: Hello Son, would u come over to accompany me to go jogging this morning? | Son: Oh Dad, please, get a Dog!" Haha #TrueStory
  • 21 Aug: "I am all alone and I am okay!"
  • 8 Sep: "Up in the hill with my favorite buddies :D Bukit merbaung mamen \m/"
My favorite buddies!
Another favorite buddies of mine.
  • 14 Sep: "Off to palembang. Last day in this merciful Indonesia, another one day before I go back to the reality, bitches! \m/"
  • 18 Sep: "Middle finger is used when words aren't enough to let people know how annoying they are :p"
  • 20 Sep: "Today I eventually finished reading "MUHAMMAD: Lelaki Penggenggam Hujan", huge thanks to Aak Seftia 'Tia' Aza who has lent me this great biography novel, cant wait to read up the sequel :)"
  • 20 Sep: "Yes, I am not perfect at all. Are you?"
  • 22 Sep: "I go to twitter and check my BBM much more frequently than I do in facebook now. So, please do follow and invite me, fellas :)"
  • 26 Sep: "Subjects for this semester have been fixed: Research Methods, Environmental Assignment, Environmental Pollution, Biological Monitoring, Environmental Health and Safety, Introduction to Waste Management, and Introduction to Geographic Info System (GIS). May the Force be with me this whole semester! Amin yaa Allah!"
  • 27 Oct: "Home wifi has been installed. Another big fat ugly distraction. T..T" 
  • 10 Nov: "I've started to end every call and message I gave to my Dad with those 3 magical words. Yes, i end them up with that "I LOVE YOU" sentence. I cant imagine how red that old man's face is, when he heard and read them. Haha. Gotcha, daddy!"
  • 12 Nov: "I strongly support the Green Economy concept which is gonna be addressed by the UN through the upcoming Rio+20 Conference. It might be the most appropriate method in achieving sustainable development and global poverty eradication!"
  • 13 Nov:  "I do believe that interracial marriage is one of the best ways to achieve the World Peace. When differences become less matter, the peace itself will embrace human race all the way."
  • 15 Nov: "Past is experience, Present is experiment & Future is expectation. Use experience in your experiments to achieve your expectations."
Friends also play crucial roles in determining your present and future time through past experience.
  • 21 Nov: "Thanks for those who has been concerning about the current quality of my study. But couldn't you use a less-insulting way to express it? Couldn't you just tell me properly instead of complaining behind my back? Fyi, I am totally aware that my perseverance level in studying is terribly decreasing. You barely know me and what stuff that I am facing now, you don't personally judge me as if you have never done the same. People do have moments when they are not really into their study, right? I skip some classes doesn't mean I don't study as hard as you do. It doesn't mean that I put less efforts than you do. It doesn't mean that i don't work hard enough to catch up things that I missed. I am not always a lazy pig as you think I am. I have been trying my best, okay. Thank you so much, anyway. I forgot how criticisms can really boost up somebody's urge to keep trying to be a better person. I promise you an immediate improvement :)"
  • 22 Nov:  "If only you are still 'here' with us, you might be either that 26 year old-married-and-success kinda man or that 26-single-and-hot kinda guy ;) Somehow I miss those moments when you brutally teased me, which always ended by a literal fight and I cried first. I miss those moments when you acted as a pro teacher and taught me everything you know, including how-to-speak-'broken'-English-properly lesson (which I've been practicing until now haha). I miss those awkward moments when you tried to show me that you are the greatest brother on earth and you are gonna do anything to protect our whole family. If only you are still 'here', we might have been much closer than before. You are supposed to celebrate your birthday with me, today. Yes, just you and me, two most awesome brothers ever existed. But apparently different things happened all the way. Never mind, I always let bygone be bygone though. I believe that you really are resting in peace right beside HIM now. But still, Happy 26th Birthday, my late ABANG!! I wish u billions of good returns :')" 
  • 23 Nov : "Good news: My acoustic group is on the final round of "Rev Up Your Talent UM 2011" event, everyone! Please do come to support and to vote for us today, okay? It's gonna be held at the AUDITORIUM of KPS. Our performance itself will be around 3 to 4 PM. So, if you are free and have no class at that time, please don't be hesitant to come over, aye? Your presence means a lot! ;)"
We won 2nd place at the end of it :D
  • 11 Dec: "People come with different perspectives. Every single human being in this world has their own ways to see things. I always respect that fact. Why can't you?"
  • 22 Dec: "Happy Indonesian Mother's Day! The only thing I wish God could bring back to my life is my Mom. Thus, people, please do love your Ma as much as you can, while you are still having her by your side. ;)"
  • 26 Dec: "Welcome to KL my most awesome uncle, Pakcu Subhan Zuhri Muhammad and his little family!! XD Nothing is better than being surrounded by our closest family, indeed! :D"
My uncle rocks!!




Friday, November 30

My Facebook Statuses in 2010.




So, I've found this awesome application to show the history of our facebook statuses from the very beginning  you created your account up to the earliest updated ones. I have been reading mine and I found it was so crazily fun! :D It has been recorded that I've joined facebook since 2009, but since my statuses in that particular year were mostly lack of good quality and so freaking lame (I frown all the time reading them! >..<), so let's just have a look at some of my interesting (read: the least lame of all) statuses in 2010. Some were written in Bahasa Indonesia though. So, yeah..
  • March 20: "The winner sees problems as opportunities for further growth."
  • May 10: "Love is the water of life, without love there is no life."
  • July 1: "Sometimes, being smart means knowing how to give up." 
  • July 13: "Gapapa saya telat masuk kuliah satu tahun dari kawan-kawan seangkatan saya. Yang penting saya punya kesempatan untuk blajar di universitas nomer satu di negri jiran ini. Yang penting saya dapat kesempatan bersaing dalam komunitas yang lebih global. Yang penting saya bisa punya temen-temen dr berbagai negara berbeda seperti saat ini. Yang penting saya punya pegangan utk masa depan, dan yang paling penting: GRATIS! :D"
  • July 22:  "Dosen geologi gue td siang ngomong gini: "One of the biggest TIN deposit resources in d world is in BANGKA island, Sumatra, Indonesia." Gue langsung nyengir kuda, membusungkan dada, dan ngembang-ngempisin idung. BANGGA!"
  • Jul 25: "For my juniors and everybody whose a big notion to study overseas whether its under scholarship or self-subsidizing, I just wanna to state that STUDY ABROAD IS SERIOUSLY NOT AS EASY AS YOU THINK T.T I don't mean to be so discouraging..but, you better think more than twice before you decide to give it a go ;)"
  • Aug 10: "Teraweh pertama di negri orang. T_T Marhaban yaa Ramadhan..mudah mudahan bisa pol kayak taon kmaren :) Amin yaa Allah."
  • Sep 2:  "Two more days and I'll be seeing those two lil' angels. Oh Fatih & 'Aisya, Ammi cant wait to meet you guys and give you two my scary-bear-hugs :D"
  • Sep 4: "Mr.sandler, I gave 8.5 out of 10 point of my movie-meter for your "GROWN UPS". I laughed from the beginning to the end. Thanks. It freshened me a lot! :D"
  • Sep 19: "Just finished reading dwilogi Padang Bulan by Bang Andrea Hirata..Mantap boi!! A must-read-very-soon book!! :D"
  • Sep 22: "The most common sample organism from phylum Porifera is : SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS. Hahahaha. Garing -__-v"
  • Sep 23: "If you can dream it, you can do it!" - Walt Disney.
  • Oct 15:  "Just had a very very wonderful time with my presentation skill class buddies!! :D We'll definitely miss you Dr. Teoh Mei Lin, YOU SO ROCK!! :')"
  • Oct 17 :  X: "Dude, I think I've got that kinda homesick thing. I'm missing my mom. I miss her smile, her 'creepy' stare, everything! Dont u miss ur mom?" Me: " Of course I do, dude. I miss her in every single second of my life" X: "Yeah, so we definitely should go back home and meet our mom these next 3 weeks holiday!" Me: " I wish I can, but my mom has left us forever. She is resting in Heaven peacefully rite now :) Lucky you, dude. Don't stop making her proud!" 
  • Oct 23: "Just got a bad news. My brother, best friend, partner, enemy, wife: Insan Ramadhann,  masuk rumah sakit, didiagnosis terserang DBD :'( Dude, please get well soon or I'll go there n kick your ass!!
  • Oct 24: "Bagi burung biadab yang udah tega berakin gue waktu gue lagi serius belajar maen basket tadi sore: Gue sumpahin lo jadi burung single seumur hidup lo! Gue sumpahin lo diberakin ama burung yg lebih gede! Gue sumpahin ga ada yg mau temenan ama lo! Dasar burung yg tidak berperikemanusiaan! Masih kerasa tauk eek lo di mulut gue sampe sekaraaang T_T"
  • Nov 5: "Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy today, but it cant rain forever!"
  • Nov 8: "Hey, Mr. Time!! Don't you realize that you have been running too fast?? Make it slower you moron!!"
  • Nov 17: "Happy Eid Qurban 1431 H, everyone!! First time celebrating it way far from my motherland. I went nowhere today, no special foods and gathering, accidentally fell asleep all day long and 4 days remaining to those creepy final exam!! What a life!! T..T"
  • Nov 18: "Damn you Mr. Rick Riordan..Can u just stop tempting and distracting me by your astonishing "Heroes of Olympus" books!! I gotta study for finals!!"
  • Nov 19: "Just watched the last Harry Potter movie Part 1. Well, you did a great job David Yates. Eventhough it was sorta too dark (or gloomy?) and kinda became a horror movie plus a bit fulgar for kiddos,but hell yeah you got a better sense of humor this year. I'm still falling for Hermione Granger (or Emma Watson?), she was damn hotter than last time! Cant wait to see the 2nd part which will be released on July next year."
  • Dec 1: "In this beginning of December, I've learned something: No need to be a doctor to possess abilities to heal somebody, all we need is being caring and loving to other people."
  • Dec 21: "It is well to give when asked, but it is better to give unasked, through understanding!" - Kahlil Gibran.
  • Dec 23: "Yesterday was very great, I had a perfect family gathering and met my cousins. Today, I'm not feeling really well, there must be something wrong with my body system. Tomorrow would be much greater for sure, as I'm gonna meet my princess. Aw aw. Hahaha
  • Dec 31: "Saya yakin Allah maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik bagi saya. Semoga hasilnya sesuai dengan usaha yg sudah saya lakukan dan kemampuan yg saya miliki. Amiin yaa Rabbal 'Alamin.."
How I looked in 2010. Yuck!





Friday, March 16

THE PARENTS : Those Who Made Me This Strong!

First thing is this blogpost contains a quite personal and serious topic. If you wish to get entertained by jokes, I kindly wouldn't recommend you to read it up. Hehe.

So, a few weeks ago, there was a friend of mine who told me that he sees a very strong and well-sustained character in me. He said that I always seemed tough and relax and cheerfully enjoying my life to the fullest, regardless of problems I've encountered throughout my days. Well, I considered that as a compliment.

Soon after, he asked me how I could become that kind of person since he thinks that he's never able to be one. I was pondering in silence for a while. Then, without any doubt, I answered his question. I told him that it's all because of my parents. They are really the ones who made me this strong.

He begged me to tell more stories about my parents. I refused. I told him it's an extremely sensitive topic for me. I always try my hardest to avoid that topic to get involved in any sorts of my conversation. He insisted and forced me to do so. As a total extrovert, I easily lost. I told him all the stories about my parents. I caught him dropped his tears a bit, I teased him all day long for being such a cry-baby. Haha.

He asked me to write those stories in my blog the other day, as he is simply motivated and slightly touched by my stories. I rejected to fulfill his request. But, guess what, here I am writing the story of my parents -____- Blame it on the extrovertedness ! :P


The Father

Let's start with the father of mine.
His name is USMAN ZUHRI. I always call him either Baba' or Daddy. He is turning 61 this year.
Dad might be one of the most conservative and not-so-open-minded men I've ever known. The fact that he really doesn't talk so much always makes me wonder how the hell that he could end up as one prominent politician in my town O_o

Yes, I have been raising up by a politician and trust me that it never really worked well. Dad got his LL.B (Bachelor of Laws) in a-local-university-i-forgot-what-its-name-was. He was a super busy man, his schedule would always packed. Having a quality time with him is a very rare phenomenon for each of his children.

His financial management skill is superb. We never could just ask him to buy anything we wanted. Even when we asked Mom to beg him. He always taught us that to gain something from him we had to achieve a certain milestone first. To get success in life, we must give all-out sacrifices. No fun, but a very imperative lesson indeed.

Dad is also an extremely religious guy. The most in our big family I would say. I don't know why that fact sometimes can seriously scare the hell out of me. Well, probably because I always can foresee that I would never be able to be as a religious as him. Gah!

The Mother

My mother was named AFIFAH, an Arabic word means chaste, pure, holy, sacred.
I called her Mama'. She was always that kind of annoyingly talkative lady. She crazily cared about the growth and self-development of each of her kids. It's not surprising at all though, as she was a primary school teacher whose commonly possesses that nature :)

Unlike Dad, Mom was a sport and artistic person. Dad was always the academic and serious one.
Unlike Dad, Mom would try anything to get everything her kids (and she herself) wanted. She was kinda extravagant sometimes, while Dad was always the very modest one.

Mom was a total fun, she shared stories and jokes a lot, her sense of humor was always hundreds of thousands times better than Dad's. She always laughed so loud as if nobody ever cared. Haha.

Well, let's move to the sad part of the story.

So, when I was 4, Mom got a terrifying stroke attack. Her right arm became totally dysfunctional. But she still worked as a teacher, her cheerfulness never faded away. She kept trying her best to play the mother role in the family. Ah, that angel in disguise! :')

When I was about 10, Mom lost her ability to talk properly. Things were changing slowly.
I started to think that Mom's condition would embarrass me in front of my friends. Thus, I never really let her meet them. My elder sister started to take over Mom's role. Dad was still as busy as a bee.

My elder brother couldn't handle the issues well; the lack of attention and parents' roles issues.
He's got murdered when he was 17. It really is a long story. The point is we were all so freaking devastated. Mom's the worst. Dad started to get closer to us, I bet it was kinda embarrassing for him. The story my brother had been published in local newspapers for a couple of weeks.

Since then, I promised my self to be unstoppable at making my parents proud. I started to join competitions and I got myself involved in organizations. People said I have achieved a lot, I believe I did. Despite the fact that my parents never attended and witnessed the moments I got awarded trophies and certificates of recognition.

Long story short, when I was 17, Mom left us forever. Dad wedded a stranger and my only one elder sister moved out of the town. I was a total mess. My attitude reached the worst and people hated me. I started to smoke, I didn't go to school, I wasted my money for crappy things, I dated two innocent girls in one time and I stopped believe in God. I hated God for putting me in such a misery. I was really lost.

Oh, I'm seriously having such a really hard time here, recalling these memories! *cold-sweating**tears-wiping*

Well, It took me almost a year to recover, to see things more clearly, to realize that I was being a huge fool, to realize that I had been torturing my people. I started to believe that pains and sorrows are supposed to make us stronger and tougher, instead of making us gradually weaker and eventually become a loser. I started to believe that God, in all of kinds of faith existed in this world, would never leave His worshipers in any kinds of life circumstance. I came to realize that losses can do nothing but strengthen us in a way nothing else could ever do.

So, I continued to reach the top and started to chase after my dreams again to keep surviving as my parents' pride. Until now.

Notes:
Today, It's been exactly 4 years since the last time I saw the peaceful face of my mother. Ah, I miss that angel in disguise so much. Every single day of my life, I beg Allah to treat her well over there. I really hope that He has been doing what I have been praying for Him to do. We might live in different worlds now, yet our love makes no distance! I still and will always love you till my last breath, Mama' :')